S.verv20
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- 3y
kaylanicole01kaylanicole01
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- OCD Conqueror
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Hi there! Thank you so much for your willingness to share on here. The main OCD subtype that I experience is SOOCD, and it is definitely so distress and I’m so sorry you’re experiencing that. I have definitely avoided being around certain people who trigger me, but I was letting OCD win by doing that! I know it’s going to be difficult, but you’re absolutely doing the right thing by jumping back into cheer knowing that there is a trigger there! You’re showing your OCD that it can’t control your life and that you’re the one in charge. I’m proud of you for getting back into things! You’re doing an amazing job. Report back and let us know how it goes!
S.verv20S.verv20
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Its really kinf od you for responsding on my post thanks it means a lot! I had my first pratique tonifht and it was difficult but i manage to finish it! Or course at thé end i had a lot of thoufhts about that same person ans i was avares to go to sleep but i did it
missblueskymissbluesky
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Hi is it okay if we talk about SOOCD?
S.verv20S.verv20
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@missbluesky Yes sure
missblueskymissbluesky
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@S.verv20 How long have you had HOCD?
S.verv20S.verv20
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@missbluesky I think it’s since like primary, 11-12 years old but I’m questioning my self if it was really that at that moment and you?
missblueskymissbluesky
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@S.verv20 I was 12 years old too! It’s honestly such a trigger for me, because I feel like because that’s the age most people find out they’re gay that it couldn’t have been ocd.
S.verv20S.verv20
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@missbluesky Yes same! What trigger you the most and what is the thoughts that you hate the most
missblueskymissbluesky
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@S.verv20 Things that I have done/ that have happened in the past that feel like very clear indicators that I’m at the very least bisexual. What about you?
S.verv20S.verv20
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@missbluesky Same, when I was young and also friend that I have, they are huge trigger for me because my head tell me that I like them so im afraid to have new friends and I’m afraid of people touching me! What helps you the most
missblueskymissbluesky
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@S.verv20 Nothing, really. My HOCD is on and off in terms of severity. When it’s better, it’s still In the back of my mind. I’m never really free of it.
S.verv20S.verv20
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@missbluesky Same, I never had a break like I always think of it. Each time I do something or I see something or I say something it’s always there to see if I’m okay or I’m not lying etc
missblueskymissbluesky
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@S.verv20 Are you able to function in like your day to day life? I worry that because I still have the thoughts but can live my life to a okay extent without serious anxiety that it’s not ocd and that I’m just in denial.
S.verv20S.verv20
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@missbluesky Yes i can live my life like normal but it’s always there but I have a lot of problem to do activities with my family because I always have the feeling that I’m lying and they will be mad etc
missblueskymissbluesky
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@S.verv20 I just feel so scared because the anxiety is so minor but the thoughts remain
missblueskymissbluesky
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@S.verv20 It really feels like I’ve been in denial since I was 12
S.verv20S.verv20
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@missbluesky Yes same!
S.verv20S.verv20
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@S.verv20 Are you followed by a professional ?
missblueskymissbluesky
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@S.verv20 I have gone through NOCD erp twice but I’ve never fully committed to it. I always am doing compulsions the whole time
missblueskymissbluesky
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@S.verv20 Are you diagnosed?
S.verv20S.verv20
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@missbluesky No i have not been diagnosed because I lives in Quebec and It’s very difficult to find someone like a therapist who is in ocd like I have seen 4 therapist but none understood what I had the whole time
missblueskymissbluesky
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@S.verv20 Do you have things that have happened in your past that you feel mean you’re lesbian/bi?
S.verv20S.verv20
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@missbluesky Yes i have when I was younger and a lot of dream too why?
missblueskymissbluesky
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@S.verv20 I do too. It just seems like there’s too much evidence pointing to me being bisexual for me to ignore these thoughts, especially because it’s been happening since I was 12.
S.verv20S.verv20
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@missbluesky Are you in a relationship
missblueskymissbluesky
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@S.verv20 No. Are you?
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