Been struggling for months. Everyday is a battle, my mind flooded with questions regarding my religion. My boyfriend watched a Marvel movie and my mind just latched on maybe it's wrong, what if we aren't compatible. Maybe God doesn't want us to be together. Maybe I'm more spiritual than him. What if it is wrong? What if I go to hell? I always end up sneakily asking reassurance. Being the loving bf that he is, he just wants me to be happy. But I have so much guilt because I can't seem to get better and the thoughts to not latch on. It gets so exhausting. Mixing faith and ROCD and religion can be extremely difficult... Anyone on any advice? I've been stuck in this pattern for about 2 months. Something small triggers and I just fall right back in. I always end up feeling even further away from God and I start to panic even more.

I struggle with this too. Every time I watch a sermon that’s about waiting on God or ditching your own plan it triggers me into ROCD and feelings that ask myself is this wrong, is God asking me to leave my bf? Is he the one? Will I be doomed if I stay with the person God didn’t have for me? It’s exhausting and unproductive and it was pulling me away from God. I’m still struggling with this but what has helped me is knowing that God knows I have OCD, and so He empathizes with my constant questioning or fear and doesn’t want to play into it. I’ve started using sermons as ERPS because at the end of the day we can never know for certain if someone is “the one” for us but God gives grace and free will to fill in those gaps where certainty is hard to achieve. Keep pushing!!

Thanks for the reply. It can be really tricky sometimes. But also bringing myself back to His love and grace in times of these. He knows our struggle!!