I struggle with this too. Every time I watch a sermon that’s about waiting on God or ditching your own plan it triggers me into ROCD and feelings that ask myself is this wrong, is God asking me to leave my bf? Is he the one? Will I be doomed if I stay with the person God didn’t have for me? It’s exhausting and unproductive and it was pulling me away from God. I’m still struggling with this but what has helped me is knowing that God knows I have OCD, and so He empathizes with my constant questioning or fear and doesn’t want to play into it. I’ve started using sermons as ERPS because at the end of the day we can never know for certain if someone is “the one” for us but God gives grace and free will to fill in those gaps where certainty is hard to achieve. Keep pushing!!
Thanks for the reply. It can be really tricky sometimes. But also bringing myself back to His love and grace in times of these. He knows our struggle!!
100% have been dealing with this too and it’s very painful. Working to remind myself of God’s character, love, and grace. Hang I. There!