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It’s not a competition. It may not be fun but there’s nothing wrong with being single and there’s a strength that not many posses at being able to be alone /on your own for a while. To be our best/healthiest we all have to be in that position at some point in our lives
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I know it’s not a competition... I just feel lonely because I’m constantly reminded that the holidays are about romance and how am I supposed to celebrate when I don’t have a girlfriend, I’m 4 hours away from my family for university, and I don’t have any friends? Not to mention with the HOCD it makes things feel real and makes me feel like crap... 😭😭😭
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@POCD/RealEventOCD Oh please no they’re not. Or at least they aren’t SOLEY about romance. How’re you supposed to celebrate? Do you want a gf just cause you’re lonely, as a place holder? Or because you want to share a life with someone? As for celebrating with no friends. buy a special dinner, watch your favorite movie, play video games, video chat people from home. go home for holidays if you can.
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@POCD/RealEventOCD I can empathize with SO-OCD, which I prefer to call it, but like I said singlehood may not be fun but there are worse things
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@Bookworm91 I want a girlfriend to emotionally connect with someone. Spending my life with the girl of my dreams would be something beautiful that I would love to have... I don’t have a car so I can’t drive anywhere, I don’t really have the time for video games due to finals and such, and my dads busy at work all day and so is my mom. So they never really spend time with me and my sister on the holidays...
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@Bookworm91 I also have POCD and real event OCD... so my life doesn’t feel great in any way...
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@POCD/RealEventOCD Well maybe it’s better that you’re single at the moment until everything settles a bit. You seem to have a lot going on. And another human brings with them their own issues that will inevitably add to yours. Not that there aren’t people worth handling that kind of stuff for but still maybe it’s good that you don’t have any added stuff to deal with. How old are you out of curiosity?
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@Bookworm91 20 years old... The fact I’m dealing with heartbreak over the holidays just sucks... 😭😭😭 and it’s not because I’m trying to find a replacement for the girl that rejected me... it’s because I genuinely want emotional connection with a girl who understands me 😭😭😭
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Im a straight man and sometimes I make the mistake of compulsively getting on here. It’s gotten better but I slip sometimes. I feel like I’m alone in this and I even read on some OCD page that Women are more likely to suffer from this theme than Men. That just makes me feel like I’m in denial of some sort. I feel alone and feel like my intrusive thoughts are different. I know that’s what everyone who has ocd thinks, but I can’t help shake the feeling like what if I’m lying to myself or what if I have some underlying secret. I don’t want to be gay. I find I argue with myself in my head over and over and sometimes by repeating “I don’t want to be gay, I want to be straight” I’ll end up saying the opposite and that would scare me even though I know that It happened because I’m constantly fighting with OCD. Just feeling a bit down today. I had a sexual dream about an ex girlfriend and it felt great and I’m not scared by it. I find and want to be with Women romantically til forever.
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I feel different from others, I don’t feel as feminine and I feel like I’ve changed. I’m not sure why I feel this way. I also don’t think my ocd is ocd, it’s just something I told myself to feel better. I know! What if I am what if I’m not, I get it, but I don’t feel like i have a choice in the matter anymore. I have soocd and it’s eaten me alive for years. I woke up out of my sleep and got triggered and here I am. I don’t know what I feel anymore. I always wanted a boyfriend and now It seemed to change. I don’t want a girlfriend, it’s just that I don’t see anything for myself and I feel like I’m hiding. It’s hard to explain. Plus sometimes the way I move or speak makes me feel more masculine and it kills me. Im feeling so lost and alone right now. I know what I want deep down but I feel incapable of having those things because I won’t be able to have feeling. If that makes sense.
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So my OCD has been bad lately. I’ve been ruminating and obsessing over my sexuality again. And it just keeps getting worse. I hate it so much. I try to sit with the discomfort but then my ocd does the backdoor spike. And the groinal response is what keeps me looped. It SUCKS. I am not attracted to men, but my OCD is trying SO hard to convince me that I am. There have been days where I’m just so mentally exhausted that I “accept” what my ocd tells me and I just walk around a hollow, lethargic shell. But then I rethink it and I feel better. It feels like I can only find my TRUE self when I tire my nervous system out enough that it literally breaks down and has me suicidal and hopeless. And then accepting my OCD’s “truth” (that I’m attracted to men) feels like a burden and a chore. I woke up today from an OCD dream, tried to go back to sleep, and my stomach kept cramping bc I was so anxious and ruminating over my intrusive thoughts. I’m starting to doubt it being OCD anymore. My brain is too tired to fight and cry about it anymore.
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