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It’s not a competition. It may not be fun but there’s nothing wrong with being single and there’s a strength that not many posses at being able to be alone /on your own for a while. To be our best/healthiest we all have to be in that position at some point in our lives
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I know it’s not a competition... I just feel lonely because I’m constantly reminded that the holidays are about romance and how am I supposed to celebrate when I don’t have a girlfriend, I’m 4 hours away from my family for university, and I don’t have any friends? Not to mention with the HOCD it makes things feel real and makes me feel like crap... 😭😭😭
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@POCD/RealEventOCD Oh please no they’re not. Or at least they aren’t SOLEY about romance. How’re you supposed to celebrate? Do you want a gf just cause you’re lonely, as a place holder? Or because you want to share a life with someone? As for celebrating with no friends. buy a special dinner, watch your favorite movie, play video games, video chat people from home. go home for holidays if you can.
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@POCD/RealEventOCD I can empathize with SO-OCD, which I prefer to call it, but like I said singlehood may not be fun but there are worse things
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@Bookworm91 I want a girlfriend to emotionally connect with someone. Spending my life with the girl of my dreams would be something beautiful that I would love to have... I don’t have a car so I can’t drive anywhere, I don’t really have the time for video games due to finals and such, and my dads busy at work all day and so is my mom. So they never really spend time with me and my sister on the holidays...
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@Bookworm91 I also have POCD and real event OCD... so my life doesn’t feel great in any way...
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@POCD/RealEventOCD Well maybe it’s better that you’re single at the moment until everything settles a bit. You seem to have a lot going on. And another human brings with them their own issues that will inevitably add to yours. Not that there aren’t people worth handling that kind of stuff for but still maybe it’s good that you don’t have any added stuff to deal with. How old are you out of curiosity?
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@Bookworm91 20 years old... The fact I’m dealing with heartbreak over the holidays just sucks... 😭😭😭 and it’s not because I’m trying to find a replacement for the girl that rejected me... it’s because I genuinely want emotional connection with a girl who understands me 😭😭😭
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- 23w
I keep having this weird feeling none stop that it’s most likely not HOCD and most my feelings. Like I’ve suffered none stop distress and unwanted thoughts the past few days. But those thoughts after a bit just feel weird not the kind of discomfort but are just their and stale. When I look at a guy I don’t feel anything but my thoughts sometimes compliment his looks or personality which makes me doubt my sexuality. I’ve never felt this weirded out. Because I’ve always been straight and still believe I am but I’ve never even had an emotional connection to someone of the opposite gender in fact. My view of the female body has been ruined with none stop pornography addictions. I don’t believe I’m gay but I feel like it may just be denial instead of HOCD but all my symptoms are literally HOCD. I don’t hate the idea of gay people but I can’t imagine or see my heart going off to like someone of the same sex. I haven’t really had any meaningful real life friends besides online but that also ended a few months ago. My only friend ever online that was my friend for the longest of time was a queer but I never really cared about what he liked. Like yes at some point I did try to challenge him with his own feelings but that didn’t last long I just accepted what he liked and moved on. I’ve never even touched let alone held a long conversation with a female. I’ve always been timid and shy around them but I can just say that towards male as well. The gay feelings feel so real. The thoughts feel a bit natural to me but I don’t want this. But I hate how I can’t just move on and be myself and love women when those thoughts demand attention and an answer. It won’t quit it. If I try to do a compulsion it calms down but it quickly becomes a problem again. I’m lonely I don’t have any friends or past relationships I can even think of helping me with the emotions. I still believe I’m straight and I just can’t see myself with a guy. It just doesn’t feel right for me despite my lack of experiences. I just wanna go back to how I was happy and loving girls and not having to question if it was a real feeling or just my natural timid nature. Everytime I think these distressing thoughts I always just wanna sit down and close my eyes and sleep. Because that’s where I can have peace of self. It sucks but I’m so exhausted of having to deal with emotional distress and I can’t even focus on my job as much. I want to meet new people discover my love for women again but I’m scared in the process I may discover I may be gay. Because deep down I know I wouldn’t ever be happy with myself if my greatest fears where confirmed. My dream of always being a father with a loving women and kids would be torn away by something I never asked for. Yes I’m religious, yes I come from a place that homosexuals are usually seen in a bad light. I just hate feeling this emotion that I may not be what I thought and having my dreams torn apart maybe true. I’ve read MUTIPLE articles about HOCD and seen MUTIPLE videos. I’ve come to the realization that I most likely have it. But it’s still hard when the feelings of maybe being gay maybe true you know? I hope I get better I hope I don’t suffer. I just wanna be happy with myself and loving females and I don’t wanna hate myself for feeling an emotion that never occurred to me more then a few times.
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- 22w
Like I can’t think straight. This is making me doubt everything I’ve thought about myself and even makes me feel like I like the thoughts when I know I don’t. Like I would be less anxious at a time while I still have the thoughts and my mind would go “oh so you like it you must be gay” or the other one where I’m not anxious and I think of my attraction for girls that I’ve had my whole life and my mind goes “see now you’re not into them you’re gay” like it’s so stupid but so effective. I clearly remember being into girls my whole life but my mind is making me believe that all these attractions and feelings for women were all fake or “a thing of the past”. But I can still get aroused by women but I have this weird anxiety going on which brings these sensations/feelings and it’s so weird. Today I’ve spent my whole day thinking about it like I’ve been doing for 5 months now. I know that this aint normal but my mind just won’t let me live in peace. I never cared about my sexuality cuz I simply liked women my whole life but now my sexuality is a fundamental philosophy. I hate this.
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- 20w
Im a straight man and sometimes I make the mistake of compulsively getting on here. It’s gotten better but I slip sometimes. I feel like I’m alone in this and I even read on some OCD page that Women are more likely to suffer from this theme than Men. That just makes me feel like I’m in denial of some sort. I feel alone and feel like my intrusive thoughts are different. I know that’s what everyone who has ocd thinks, but I can’t help shake the feeling like what if I’m lying to myself or what if I have some underlying secret. I don’t want to be gay. I find I argue with myself in my head over and over and sometimes by repeating “I don’t want to be gay, I want to be straight” I’ll end up saying the opposite and that would scare me even though I know that It happened because I’m constantly fighting with OCD. Just feeling a bit down today. I had a sexual dream about an ex girlfriend and it felt great and I’m not scared by it. I find and want to be with Women romantically til forever.
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