Hi everyone. Currently struggling with SO-OCD for the first time and for about a month, it’s been all consuming. I know in my core that I am a heterosexual female, but my mind keeps trying to recreate past memories and come up with scenarios to convince me otherwise. I feel so isolated and like I am lying to myself, when really I know that this is my OCD. Has anyone had a similar experience where your mind makes you feel like you are living a lie, even though you know deep down what your values are? Not looking for reassurance, just wondering if anyone can relate, as this is all new to me and is making me feel extremely alone.

Been going through this for awhile now and had no idea that it was ocd but i definitely caused it myself i over thought something during a misunderstanding and next thing i know im freaking out crying and pannick attacks, room isolation, i quit my job bc the anxiety got so tense to the point i was feeling like i was gonna pass out, i questioned everything around me and my environment and how i sat down , brushed my teeth, ate food, brought up memories that happened and then would twists them up . Its still new to me bc my mind is like its not ocd and then its like its ocd. I even feel like im not me like someone hijacked my brain. But you are not alone, im a straight 22 year old male and this is terrifying. Nocd is a great support place. Be strong !