I feel like my ocd gives me mood swings. A couple of days ago I had this feeling of pure and utter relief like the whole world would be okay and I felt a sense of calm and attraction towards my partner. Then gradually it just dissipated? It’s like I constantly jump between two things with HOCD. It’s like I know I’m not gay but it feels so much as if I am and I want to be? I don’t know anymore. When this thing happened a couple of days ago I was sitting there fully saying “yes my ocd has gone, I don’t need this app anymore, my meds must be working” I felt great. I could forget all the thoughts I had had and just get on with life. It felt like I had been unchained. And now it’s come back even more complicated and confusing more then it ever has been

Anonymous

154d ago

Going through exact same thing. What’s happening is the OCD is trying to tell us, is “hey you were feeling good the other day, meds must be working… oh wait a minute, I just had a negative thought (no med on earth can stop that) and ruminated on it”. You then ruminated more, and then for anxiety not only that you felt like shit, which is gonna happen time to time, but also ocd is telling you the meds aren’t working, which is a new worry you didn’t have before to add to it. Keep fighting. You ain’t alone.

BradOCD

154d ago

How do I go on from here tho. It felt so good and calming at the time but now it feels tainted. Like it was all a lie

Anonymous

153d ago

@BradOCD How long have you been your medication?

BradOCD

153d ago

@Anonymous I think about 3 months now although I did have a time of about 4 weeks where I came off it because I was having an awful drawn out back door spike