So I’m watching euphoria and now scared that I’m gay like nAte 😭😭 like what if I’m not feeling as attractive to guys or matter of fact dudes my age 💀 and now I’m like kinda worried bc like I keep thinking me and my friend kissing and Idk why but it feels like i like it or want that in a way.. 😭 bc what if I find out im gay and not straight ? Like what if im suppressing my sexuality literally bc I just feel so stuck and like I don’t genuinely like anyone? And it kinda sucks in a way ?? Or idk but im scared it’s gonna be like one of those stories where I figure out im gay 💀 and there’s nothing wrong with it honestly I just feel like it’s something that doesn’t go with me bc im straight? It literally feels like I would want to kiss a girl tho 💀 and it’s confusing bc before if I kissed a girl then fine I would kiss a girl no big (all before my ocd) but I just never came through or just much into it bc I was scared and I didn’t want my first kiss to be girl😭 but l know im scared bc let’s just say it did happen then what if I turn gay and like it like I just keep imagining those thing abt my ocd and idk if it’s normal bc ofc I don’t want to do it but I just keep Thinking abt all the possibilities.. :/

I’ll try bc both of these responses are different and idk how to take them 😭😭

@kathernyr What do you mean both these responses?

@Drvmstick Bc I felt like the other one was implying that I am going to be gay 😭😭🥲

@kathernyr To me it looks like they were implying that you can’t know for sure, and that’s true. You have to stop trying to convince yourself that you’re straight and instead face the fact that maybe you’re not sure. Who knows, maybe you are gay? Maybe not? That sucks, not knowing sucks. But it is what it is and you have to face it. The problem isn’t whether or not you’re straight or gay, the problem is that you care so much and you need to know for certain. But umfortunately there’s no certainty in life, and when you accept that is when OCD starts to lose its power over you.

So.. am I becoming a lesbian??😭😭🥲 :/

@kathernyr Maybe you are, maybe you aren’t. Maybe you’re becoming bisexual. Maybe you’re not. Let yourself accept that you are fairly sure you are straight, but if you end up feeling differently that will be absolutely okay and you will be able to handle it. Let yourself accept that you feel uncertain and confused right now. It’s most likely confusion caused by your OCD playing tricks on you, but you don’t have to know why you’re confused right now. Either way, it’s okay. You don’t have to know what it means.

@booba I know it’s okay I’m just scared it’s something that not me.. yk? 😭

@kathernyr Why is there two likes on it 💀 does that mean I am

@kathernyr No one can answer that for you. You’re the only one who can identify your sexualit. OCD is playing tricks on you. It won’t help for you to reassure yourself that you’re straight or for me to reassure you. OCD isn’t going I let this go until your feelings about your sexuality change. You will only be able to stop worrying about if you’re gay or not if you let yourself accept that, if you are gay, that is okay, and you will know that about yourself as you grow. It’s not the fact that you might be gay that is so terrifying to you and your OCD, it’s the fact that you might not know yourself and your intentions the way you feel you should. OCD does not like feeling unsure about something. OCD is telling you that you don’t know yourself. It’s telling you to watch your thoughts and reactions and to interpret their meanings when in reality thoughts don’t all have meaning. To stop being stressed about it you have to lean in to the confusion. Lean in to the idea that you might be secretly gay and denying it and remind yourself that, if rhat was the truth, there is absolutely nothing wrong with that and you have all the time in the world to become comfortable with who you are. Just like people with contamination OCD, it won’t help for me to just tell you that everything is fine. It doesn’t help for me fo tell you that you’re straight. It doesn’t help for me to tell ppl with contamination OCD that they’re clean and no germs are on them. They have to accept that they might be unclean. They have to accept the possibility that they might have germs on them that will get them sick. They have to lean in to the idea that they may be truly contaminated, and if they are, they will be able to handle it. There are hospitals and medicine and doctors that can help them if they get sick. Humans are naturally supposed to be exposed to germs and it actually makes you better at fighting sickness. You will only be able to get over this obsession if you let yourself accept that worst-case scenario MAY be true, and if it is, you will be able to handle it.