Please only adults read . . . This is so hard for me to get over. Months ago my husband and I were intimate. I wasn't in the mood but I did it for him since it had been a while. I get pocd intrusive thoughts so I avoid it a lot. This will be tmi but He was touching me for a while and I felt nothing. Wasn't getting in the mood Moments later i got an intrusive of my son's hand being there instead of my husband's. It wasn't an image and it was such a quick thought but I felt something down there. So I was like what?! What does this mean. But I focused to see if the feeling would go away. Then as my husband continued touching me I kept getting more in the mood. And we ended up continuing. I get intrusives happen during and right at the end but before you even get in the mood as your partner is trying to get you in the mood? It doesn't seem right to me.

classyrockgal24

Date posted: 3y

no i’m not and i can’t imagine how hard being a mom with pocd is:( having it has made me worried i’ll never be able to have kids but as time goes on and medication and therapy begin to work, i have more hope

Maeh24

Date posted: 3y

Yes don't let it stop you. Glad you are on the path to therapy now so you will be stronger when you do have kids

classyrockgal24

Date posted: 3y

there’s some awesome podcasts out there that really give me hope for getting better and give me the strength i need on hard days, yoh should check out the ocd and anxiety podcast it’s super good!

Anon1294

Date posted: 3y

I’m a mom with pocd and I haven’t had the same exact thing happen but similar things happen. Sometimes the most terrifying things pop in my head and I grit my teeth and feel so angry and disgusting that my brain does that. I can spend the entire day with my kids perfectly normal but then if my daughter rests her head on my chest I feel like she shouldn’t be there and I make her move so I can avoid the possibility of being aroused. I fear that some day It might happen and I would have to leave my children. So I’ve learned to just sit with being uncomfortable and uncertainty. It’s incredibly difficult because I love my children and I miss just being their mom without this scary feeling

Freemeofocd

Date posted: 3y

I can relate to this hardcore. My daughter always wants to sit on my lap or lay on me and when she does I feel this huge anxiety wash over me and I become super hyper focused on my body parts and what their feeling. If I even make the slightest move or twitch, I freak out. My daughter was laying her head on my chest the other day and I was so uncomfortable. I felt my arm/chest area twinge and now my ocd brain is telling me I acted on an urge because my chest felt a tingle. I don’t even know if It did or not or if it was just the immense anxiety washing over me. But I feel so guilty.

Anon1294

Date posted: 3y

@Freemeofocd I know what you mean, sometimes I think that I felt something but it’s really just because I’m so focused on that area at the time. I’m so sorry you’re going through this too.

classyrockgal24

Date posted: 3y

i’m so sorry you guys are going through that, you are so strong! you got this!

gdelacruzm

Date posted: 3y

Might be a compulsive checking to find out if you are or not. Happened to me a few times, forcing myself to imagine my kids instead of my husband to see if I am really not that.

Maeh24

Date posted: 3y

It wasn't a compulsion. It was a quick thought but yea u think use had that before too what you are saying. I'm afraid since my husband tried getting me in the mood and it wasn't working then when I got the thought I felt something ... then got even more in the mood moments later ... I feel what if I wasn't attracted to my husband. Has this ever happened to you like that?

gdelacruzm

Date posted: 3y

@Maeh24 Not really, my experience was different.

Maeh24

Date posted: 3y

@gdelacruzm Oh. Mine is worse I'm assuming? I was worried about that

gdelacruzm

Date posted: 3y

@Maeh24 I wouldn't know. I hoped I could help you, sorry

classyrockgal24

Date posted: 3y

i had such a hard time getting back into having sex and being intimate it just takes time and communication, take the maybe statements of maybe this will happen maybe it won’t, a thought is just a thought and those feelings are only there because i’m focusing on it,

Maeh24

Date posted: 3y

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