- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
Start with small exposures , this looks like a too heavy burden for you
Same i am struggling with questions like… Liking the same sex personality wise emotionally is that false attraction cause of ocd?!? What if its not…and I don’t know if its true or not?!? Like i feel like that?!? And thats like the biggest proof and my fear coming true cause there’s nothing to combat or fight this…how do i know not more than friends? Noticing and stuffing just adds to it? And if its not intrusive and on hangout basis and then everything is true then.. all this ocd was a lie and i was lying to myself and i feel like this thought doesn’t give me anxiety but i feel scared in an overwhelming way and like not anxious like its my truth?! Would i feel better if I accept it whether its true or not?! What do i do?? This can
And also like people coming put in their 70’s and stuff and like idk what to do?!?
Mine is weird like i would have made up the entirety of my personality and my preferences if I was not into men, so I feel like that’s gotta be true. And then I just can’t figure it if I’m bi and where that falls. I genuinely don’t believe I have an interest in being intimate with a woman but the constant amounts of what ifs, and then the occasional groinals, make me feel like I really have to figure it out. AGH
I was told what ifs are a part of ocd and i am struggling with the same too… I don’t know what to do too i constantly think other people won’t question and if i do there has to be some truth to it the thoughts feel so strong idk how to shove them away
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I’ve done written ones frequently and I generally felt like I could “move up”… any suggestions?
it sounds like you're having a hard time because you did such a big exposure. OCD wants you to feel unsafe during exposures which is why we have to do them. we need to show OCD that even during exposures we will not do any compulsions. this is a perfect time to sit with your anxiety and accept that it doesn't need answered. you can't ruminate and get the results you need! maybe you are bisexual, maybe you are not. maybe it is ok to not know right now! you don't have to give OCD any certainty.
Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
I need too know that I'm not insane, really. I am 16 and for the past two weeks, this has been completely ruining my health and happiness. I only recently came out as a lesbian like 3 months ago after a lot of confusion about my attraction since I used to think I liked men. At first, I felt so sure that I liked women, but lately, I've been having these unwanted thoughts about the possibility of liking men. I never used to feel this way, but now, every time I look at a man, my brain obsessively fixates on it. It forces me to imagine kissing him, loving him, things I don’t want, and then tries to convince me that I do. It’s painful. The thought of this fills me with fear and anxiety, leading to panic attacks and breakdowns. I don’t want these thoughts. I hate them with every fiber of my being, but I’m terrified that one day I’ll act on them and somehow like it. I used to think I liked men, but back then, I was in a very unhealthy space in a time of escapism and something deeply parasocial. I’ve only ever liked the attention and validation a man could give me, but these experiences are somehow treated as further proof that I’m "bisexual." I’ve never been in a real relationship with anyone, which makes my brain constantly challenge me—telling me, “You don’t even know what love feels like.” It won’t shut up. It keeps obsessively trying to make me prove that I’m a lesbian, testing my reactions and questioning my certainty. Is this normal?
As a lesbian with SO-OCD, I feel so helpless. It's truly exhausting because no one I know understands what I'm going through. The first response is always, "You're just confused" or "You don't have to know yet." But that's not the issue, I do know. I just never see any lesbians with SO-OCD so I feel so invalidated. These thoughts flood my brain constantly, forcing me to analyze my reactions to every man I see. I feel trapped in an endless cycle of "testing" myself, trying to prove that I don't like them. But my brain fights back, telling me I do want to love a man, making it feel real even though don't want it. It's terrifying. At this point, it's hard to even hold onto my identity as a lesbian because I'm so overwhelmed. I don't know if this is what real attraction is supposed to feel like, and that fear eats away at me. The truth is, when I think about being with a man, all I feel is disgust and fear-but my brain twists that into doubt. I hate it. I'm at the point where I'm scared I'm going to have to accept something I don't want because I don't know if this will ever go away. I miss who I was before all this.
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