Just did a big exposure and watched a lot of “ I thought I was straight until x” videos of women in hetero relationships realizing they were lesbians in their 20s and 30s and I’m so scared and uncertain. I feel like I would actually be insane to have made up all the feelings I have felt for men consistently over the years, and I’m simultaneously afraid I’m bi and just don’t know/can’t figure it out. Today is hard and a day when I feel like I don’t have ocd and I might just be lying.

Brave through

155d ago

Same i am struggling with questions like… Liking the same sex personality wise emotionally is that false attraction cause of ocd?!? What if its not…and I don’t know if its true or not?!? Like i feel like that?!? And thats like the biggest proof and my fear coming true cause there’s nothing to combat or fight this…how do i know not more than friends? Noticing and stuffing just adds to it? And if its not intrusive and on hangout basis and then everything is true then.. all this ocd was a lie and i was lying to myself and i feel like this thought doesn’t give me anxiety but i feel scared in an overwhelming way and like not anxious like its my truth?! Would i feel better if I accept it whether its true or not?! What do i do?? This can

Brave through

155d ago

And also like people coming put in their 70’s and stuff and like idk what to do?!?

KEW915

155d ago

Mine is weird like i would have made up the entirety of my personality and my preferences if I was not into men, so I feel like that’s gotta be true. And then I just can’t figure it if I’m bi and where that falls. I genuinely don’t believe I have an interest in being intimate with a woman but the constant amounts of what ifs, and then the occasional groinals, make me feel like I really have to figure it out. AGH

Brave through

155d ago

I was told what ifs are a part of ocd and i am struggling with the same too… I don’t know what to do too i constantly think other people won’t question and if i do there has to be some truth to it the thoughts feel so strong idk how to shove them away

2022Recovery

155d ago

Start with small exposures , this looks like a too heavy burden for you

Jesse Miller

152d ago

it sounds like you're having a hard time because you did such a big exposure. OCD wants you to feel unsafe during exposures which is why we have to do them. we need to show OCD that even during exposures we will not do any compulsions. this is a perfect time to sit with your anxiety and accept that it doesn't need answered. you can't ruminate and get the results you need! maybe you are bisexual, maybe you are not. maybe it is ok to not know right now! you don't have to give OCD any certainty.