My soocd feels like it takes up everything in my life. The triggers are everywhere. I am a straight female, 18, and I have a wonderful boyfriend, my ROCD used to be my main theme but now it’s shifted to SOOCD. I’ve always since I was a little girl dreamt of having a “prince” and a family. And when I experienced bad ROCD I feared that when I start a family it wouldn’t be with my partner. But now with SOOCD whenever I think of my future of having a family I have intrusive thoughts about it being with a girl(really embarrassed to share that)..and I just don’t like it! I wish I didn’t have those intrusive thoughts. I’ve always loved imagining a future with my boyfriend and now I feel like OCD has just taken that over. Anyone else? It’s like the intrusive thoughts are almost instant. So annoying!! Sometimes I fear this will last forever😫even though I know it won’t.

I can definitely relate to this, although I’m 30. Really relate to all I’ve ever wanted has been that story. Now when I picture my future, I can’t picture anything at all. My OCD is using that against me.

It’s annoying and it can really make you doubt your feelings. Confusion can happen too. I’ve had SOOCD for over a year now but it went away until this year, until I was finally diagnosed. This flare has been going on for 4 months now with ERP + therapy combined. I’m 28 and newly engaged to my fiancé, who was my bf for 7.5 years. I also know these feelings and doubts doesn’t last forever but it’s definitely hard and challenging 😔 i feel you and hope for the best, keep pushing yourself 💕

Thank you!! It always makes me feel less alone when I hear about others who go through SOOCD and especially people who go through it when they’re also in relationships. Congratulations on you’re engagement 🥰 and sending love for healing!!

@Anonymous I’m glad it helped you feel less alone! NOCD also have free support groups & there’s a group every Monday + tues for sexual content. I especially love the Tuesday group, the therapist who host it is hilarious and also has OCD herself. Thank you for the congratulations 🥰 take care! 💕

Sending love to you both! It gives me hope for my future.

Same! Thank you both for sharing ☺️

i think it is super important to remember that our subtypes are only a small portion of what we need to focus on when having OCD. it is common that when we have OCD, our themes will change. this is because OCD is trying to find the next topic to cause anxiety. you need to look at all your OCD thoughts as the same - they're just thoughts and they need to be handled similarly even when different subtypes pop up. i can tell you that in this post, i can sense you doing a really big compulsion - ruminating. youre looking for answers within your thoughts, and that is where OCD is catching you. don't give answers and just accept that you have these thoughts.

Hi Jesse! Do you have an answer of what’s our “regular” thoughts and what’s our OCD thoughts? I’m having troubles with that.

Thank you so much for commenting! 🥰

@WhyMe? Hey! I’ve learned to realize I’m not always sure what my OCD thoughts are and what my regular thoughts are. I can sometimes tell what my OCD thoughts are because I get stuck trying to solve them, and then I remind myself I don’t have to! It’s just a thought like the rest of them.

@Jesse Miller Thank you Jesse, you’re such an inspiration to this community. Definitely have to learn that thoughts are just thoughts. One day I’ll get to where you’re at. Take care! 💕