TW* The physical symptoms of anxiety and depression are devastating me man, its so hard to do anything. This is really happening, first my hocd thoughts come true and now Im trans. Thinking about coming out is tiving me so much anxiety and fear this surely means I am that thing. It feels like I never really understood what love meant and and how relationships worked and I was just following what people around me wered doing ie chasing girls which is why I wanted gf and liked girls, even my sexual attraction to them Ive told myself was fake and not real and true. My whole life, every interaction pretty much seems/serves as a big proof that im gay/trans. I dont know what to do. I feel really ill. Something that made genuienly depressed me yesterday was that my mother is having trouble with my dad and i told her stop bothering with him and leave him be she said " I want to leave him for real and If i can be strong for her and my little brother that is all i want, we're in America, there is so many opportunitues". I fucking hated hearing those words from her, I cant take care of myself one bit, how am I going to give her and my little bro a good life. I wish she could just forget that I exist, so I can deal with this fucking shitshow of a life in peace or better yet just Kms.

The resisting makes it worse. Give in and rest your eyes closed and take a deep breath and say “I am gay” “I enjoy being gay” exposure therapy heals you. I don’t know if you truly are gay and/or trans… but I do know you have ocd because you are obsessed with thinking about it and trying to figure it out. The only way to escape that is accepting yourself. Even if you do it in private, accept yourself. The minute I accepted myself I felt a release. And the attraction for the opposite sex became strong again. Maybe it will and maybe it won’t. Accept that. Accept the future unconditionally. You NEED to do the work to feel better

@Anon1294 Thats the thing, I dont think i was ever truly attracted to the opposite sex, i thought I was but I believe it was false and not true attraction

Its not ocd man, I dont know why you keep saying it is. What ocd videos? I literally cant relate to them

@Imaan7 Based on things you have said b4 i would bet my life savings u have OCD

@Imaan7 If you truly believe that you no longer have ocd why do you keep posting on a app for ocd?

@ocdman I dont know where else to go, I left the hocd subreddit months ago.

@OneDayAtATime Even if it is just ocd dosent mean that my thoughts and feelings arent true. I dont know what to do, im feeling so much anxiety

@Imaan7 Therapist

@ocdman And what will I do when its clear to me these thoughts are true? Part of me already knows they are, how can ocs therapy help me?

@Imaan7 It’ll help you to live without the anxiety that is crippling you!