Having a hard time with my ROCD lately. It went away for a bit and wasn’t more than a background buzz but now I feel like it’s coming back with a vengeance. Between the struggle with my low libido from being on Prozac and then any miscommunication I have with my fiancé I feel like I’m constantly testing how I feel in moments of affection or intimacy. It continuously yo-yos my thoughts between feeling scared I’ll be abandoned for not being able to perform to feeling like “maybe we aren’t meant to be because I don’t feel right in this specific moment.” I hate it, I just wish I could be normal like everyone else. Sometimes I fear I’ll always have ROCD and the relationship will fall apart because of it.