I hate saying the guy that I want is not grown enough when I don’t want girls and I said I keep acting I’m so sorry I keep acting weird with a smile and then I said more than he’s not girly and then said girly enough when he’s not girly at all and I don’t want them to be girly and I’m scared! I felt funny over a much bigger more muscular guy and I’m scared I don’t want to start feeling attraction any other guy let alone any other body type I’ve never liked big muscular dude and I feel funny I don’t want to find any other man attractive especially not a bulky like bodybuilder guy and I’m scared I feel funny and I’m smiling like I am I’m not bisexual I’m not adding a team and I don’t want to find muscular bodybuilders attractive I’m scared because the ones I looked up on Google gross but I’m scared this one isn’t I feel funny I don’t want to open up to more guys or other men no matter how hopeless my situation with my guy is because he doesn’t know me but I’ve been in love with him for a long time and I don’t wanna talk about it in more detail than that but I’m scared I really feel funny like I do because the video I saw was that the guy the muscular guy I’m scared I like all kinds I don’t want to like all kinds I just want my guy but the muscular guy was having some kind of competition I think it was from England because I had accents I keep saying he’s cute I don’t want muscular guys to be cute and I’m not trying to be mean but he was hanging on a bar and I guess it was a competition to see how long he could hang there and he was really muscular and to keep feeling funny my stomach saying he’s he’s not cute I don’t want him to be! I don’t want my guy to go away and when I look at pictures of my guy I’m scared I’m not reacting like I used to know I’m scared it’s getting replaced like I’ve always battled like maybe he is but he’s not too skinny I love my guy he’s gotten in shape now but I would love him no matter what like I’ve seen him at his worst and I still wanted to do him lol not just do him but I’m trying to be lighthearted. But now I’m scared him I don’t want to move on to bigger and I keep saying that but it’s never been better to me before I don’t want bigger more muscular guys and I keeps acting like I’m adding when I don’t want boobs I’m not bisexual I’m not in the middle I’m scared I felt weird and funny and did a weird kind of like gesture with my mouth but I don’t want vagina or clitoris I don’t want I keep acting like but it’s not sucks I don’t want the vaginal canal and I’m scared the muscle guy pushed out my guy I don’t want the muscle guy I want my guy and I’m fine he really is and I felt super funny my stomach and remembering the more muscular arms I don’t want any guy to be more tractive than mine I don’t wanna move on and I’m scared it’s a sign I don’t want to move on I really don’t want a more muscular guy but I’m scared I feel funny I’m smiling and feeling funny my stomach like this guy he’s not special I’m scared he is currently ask and he’s not I’m scared I am I’m not moving on my guy is not a toothache especially not anymore and it doesn’t matter I want my God I want him to come back I don’t want the bigger muscular guy to push them out I’m scared to sign like not but my guys the guy from you no matter what happens in that scenario I don’t want another person I’m smiling I’m scared I should I don’t want to move onto muscles I’m scared I’ve always wanted that because I criticize my guys so much even though I don’t intend to but I’m OK I just can’t stand it! I looked at much more muscular guys in the dude I looked at in skies that are similar to the guy that I looked at you know the one hanging from the bar in the competition I’m scared I said the sexy he’s not a sexy when I keep feeling funny I don’t want another guy

I am scared, because we both like each other. We get a long very well, and I enjoy his company so much. He has had top surgery, he has a sharp jawline, he's on HRT, but he also has long hair and pretty eyes. He acknowledges that while he obviously presents masculinely he also some feminine traits, he's a "girly boy". But I am scared cause I don't know if I am really attracted to him for any of the "masculine" parts of him. I am attracted to him, I think, because of the "girly" parts. It feels almost like I am betraying him, like I am attracted to him not because he's a guy but because he looks like a girl to me. Which would be horrible to hear if you're a trans man I'm sure. I have been refusing to accept it for weeks now. It can't be the case, I hope. I have watched gay porn before, a lot actually. But I have never had interest in men before him. Everything in my head points to me doing this shameful act, that this whole time I have been misgendering him in my head. I hate it, because I know in my heart that he is a man. He's even looked like a man in the past to me. So I don't know why I can only see the feminine side now. I just don't want to lose him. I love liking him. I want to talk to him like we always do. Am I gay? I don't know? Do I like men? Same question, but I still don't know. Why do I like him? Because he looks like a man or a girl? I don't know. I am just sad, and scared. My therapist tells me I have to live in uncertainty. I don't doubt her. I am not asking for reassurance, just advice. I also needed to vent. Cause my thoughts are spiraling.

False attraction has been killing me ive had it for months with the same person. I have a boyfriend so having false attraction makes me feel so guilty. And lately theyve felt so real and ive been so anxious. What if I do like him bla bla. Ive only ever saw him as a brother and we have a good connection and he is one of my good friends but even sometimes when im having a conversation I feel like im cheating. Sometimes I get excited like oh yay he is gonna be here and then I get scared that it’s romantical because I get excited when he is around because he is a funny. Im so scared thats its real attraction because I love my boyfriend I would never do such a thing. And lately my minds done stuff like oh grab his attention stuff like that and it feels like I have done those actions but I dont want to. Sometimes when he is like idk sitting near Im like oh is he looking and my minds like oh do something to empress him bla bla. Recently he was going thought stuff and my boyfriend was there and I was I can give him a hug because I think he needs it but after I thought of it as bad because he is a guy and I had this false attraction what if I did it because I like him bla bla. I am freaking out idk why my mind makes me do compulsions that I have acted on like oh go talk to him and I do its weird urges that I do not want to do. I am scared that it will come true

hey guys, i am really really struggling and i feel like crying. evry day i get this feeling of sexual attraction to the same gender, and i get those feelings even just thinking about it now. i hste them and want them to go away but they simply won’t and it has me thinking that this is just how my life is gonna be like. when i was fully healed or atleast thought i was healed from the false attraction and soocd, i still sometimes got that attraction feeling, and i would force my body not to feel it. i hated it and was scared of liking it so i would like stop breathing and make it stop. it was only ever occasional but this is making me concerned now too, because i still sometimes felt that feeling when i was healed. now currently my main trigger is masculine girls, but when my soocd first started i had no false attraction or attraction like this towards girls, and it was all just in my mind like saying, “don’t look at that girl or you’re gay.” there was one point in my soocd where i was worried about being attracted to my friends, but i am greatful in the sense of i know that that is not true and my main issue is the false attraction watching videos and i have experienced it once in real life too and i hated it. please lmk what i should do or even if you can relate. i am sick of feeling th is way, and i am a christian too so this makes it harder. i’ve tried everything like accepting it, or trying to even say to myself yes u do like it but it always just leads to me being scared.