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Right so this is probably not going to be helpful and I’m trying not to give you reassurance but just know that the fact u have tried to rationalize this so much here means that it is ocd. What u have to do now is leave the thoughts in your head but don’t entertain them or try to rationalize them further. Just sit with the feeling maybe or maybe not which is REALLY horrible I know but trust me is the only way to get better. TLDR sit with the thoughts don’t entertain them and just let them pass by like clouds.
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I don’t know if this helps at all, because it’s a form of reassurance… but you said you’re 21 and 18 yr olds are actually in the same age range as you. 3 years is not a huge age difference so it’s not weird to be attracted to guys around your age. It’s the people who are older who target younger people and take advantage of them for control and harm. You’re just sexually exploring, I don’t think it’s wrong to have a small age gap
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irl i definitely get that and usually stick within a year or two in age range for people i date. It’s just in these fantasies it’s like late high school aged i guess because that’s what society portrays as “a normal and preferred” time for guys to lose their virginity. Even though of course it’s different for everyone. But like i said irl i don’t even really have any urge or want to take anyones virginity, i don’t even really enjoy the actual act of sex with guys for the most part. And would never do anything with a minor.
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Right out of gate it isn’t pedophilia if you’re scared of being attracted to teenagers. Pedos are attracted to pre-pubescent children. That’s the one and only definition.
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right, my pocd has kinda morphed into what i guess i would call ephebophelia ocd. makes it hard to even enjoy fiction as i’ve outaged most of my favorite fictional characters (especially in anime) and most underage characters in video games or cartoons can vaguely fit an age of ranges and are often portrayed as more mature than real teenagers.
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- 3y ago
@Brain1 This is the exact same as me wow. It’s so hard to read or watch anything without feeling guilty about experiencing a single emotion lol
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@snva i totally feel that! and i can’t even like a character or have any positive emotion towards them without my ocd telling me it’s sexual attraction
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this is helpful, i’ve been on this ocd rodeo to know long enough reassurance isn’t helpful in the long run. Thank you for responding! :)
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No worries u can do this!!!!! Hang in there x
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- 15w ago
Trying not to seek reassurance, but rather connect the dots on my OCD and possible reasons as to why I am the way I am. I have severe OCD (or at least I hope I do) mainly surrounding POCD. I've had symptoms of OCD the majority of my life but this theme has come up more recently. When I was a kid, and i'm talking 6-7, I was first exposed to some really gross adult content online. It was introduced to me by a friend of mine around the same age of me. I saw some really disgusting things that a 6-7 year old should definitely not see. This was not a one time occurrence, as I had been exposed to taboo topics online years to come after that, such as the same friend introducing me to Omegle... And i'm sure you can imagine how that went, theres a lot of genuinely disgusting human beings on there. Coming back to the reason for making this post; is it possible to early exposure to this content could be one of the reasons I struggle with POCD? It genuinely scares me to death because you hear that real p*dos dealt with simular situations when they were kids, so thats kind of making me feel that this could be more than OCD, and I could be a genuinely bad person. My POCD feels so real, that at times i'm fully convinced its not OCD. Sometimes I can't even distinguish the feelings of attraction between a younger person and an older person, except for the feeling of anxiety and fear. Its really hard to explain without going into detail, but it just feels so real. Some feedback on this would be great, thank you all.
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- 15w ago
Sometimes I think " do I like kids?" "Would i get aroused if I saw content with kids?""What if I'm a pedo and cant accept it?" "What if I'm ok with these thoughts?" "What if I'm not distressed enough " "What if I enjoy these thoughts?" , i avoid kids as much as i can, i cant look at them bc I'm scared I'm gonna have some groin like response. I keep testing if I'd get turned on or if I'd have some groinal response to sexual scenarios with kids. Sometimes I think that if I took my life this would be over and i wouldn't have to think about this and i wish i doubted something else instead of things like this. I had similar situations just with different topics such as if i loved or found sexually appealing a guy while in a relationship and i kept asking myself those questions for months and i avoided going to school for weeks and when I went I'd cry and have anxiety attacks. I had it with past actions i obessed over and felt the need to exploit every detail and be honest because otherwise i was being a fraud. I had it for sexual things that happened when i was a child. Im not diagnosed with ocd but should i tell this to my local counselor? Can someone help? Give me advice or tell me anything?
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- 12w ago
Being exposed to taboo p*rn as young as first grade ruined my life and now ocd is making me pay for it. I have so much guilt for being a child/teen and looking at taboo stuff, and it was all fictional or anime or whatever but it was still so so gross. and I didn't realize It because I had been used to it at so young 🫠 I think what haunts me most is when I was a kid/young teen (like 12-14ish) and didn't have access to p*rn I'd imagine stuff similar to what I'd seen in the art. I can't even believe I'd imagine scenarios involving kid characters or whatever because it had been so normalized to me and I assumed it was normal since it was fiction. I'm 23 now so it's been a decade since I've done anything like that and I've never had the urge to since but still. I've NEVER been attracted to kids or had any urges or anything ever, even when I was addicted. The thought makes me want to vomit, I'd rather die than associate anything sexual with kids/minors and I think people who groom or assault kids are vile. But I still feel like the fact that I imagined stuff similar to the things I read sometimes when I was young is proof I'm a p*do. I don't think people would believe me if I said I'm not. I just feel like I don't deserve to live or that if I do, I'm living a lie. I know 'I was a kid too' but even when I was 13/14 I read/imagined stuff with characters younger than me because I thought it was normal. I'm so disgusted. I've had this theme for so long I'm starting to wonder if ocd is right. I feel too ashamed to tell my therapist.
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