This actually helped thank you. How painful was the ERP process for you?
Dude genuinely the best ERP I had was just living life. I only spoke with a therapist 2 times. The thoughts are always around just I don’t care as much as ya know? I just constantly catch myself responding because I first thought that maybe agreeing with the thoughts would help but it wasn’t for me. I found just genuinely not saying anything back whether agreeing or disagreeing helped the most. It’s not easy though lol some days are harder especially when I haven’t slept much. Still though for the first few months I was constantly physically hot and in a weird state of perpetual anxiety where it never went away. Like i said even looking at my own body gave me anxiety and thoughts had me shaking. Going to the gym was far more difficult than I’d like to admit as well. The groinal responses too have kinda just gone away with random ones still happening but they just don’t carry the same weight as before. Kinda pointless to care when I realize for myself they happened when I least wanted them to and are there just to scare me. It’s tough but you got it.