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I sympathise completely. My ROCD has made me lose trust in myself and my choices and it can be so painful and disorientating. I’m still figuring out how to accept uncertainty but I guess that’s the hardest part of it all. One day at a time! If you want to talk then I’m all ears 😌
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Yeah I am seeing a therapist am doing cbt with atm and on medication just want my life back
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Ah okay! I don’t know if you went through this but I put a lot of pressure on therapy and medication sorting everything out for me. I would say “as soon as I start this and that, I’ll be better”… it’s easy to feel disappointed when things don’t sort themselves out instantly. I wish for my old self too and it seems we are both in a place where it’s hard to imagine not feeling like this. But we just got to trust the process. If u ever wanna reach out to someone throughout your journey then let me know x
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Yeah I can fully relate to that setting my hopes on medication just to be disappointed
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I will thank you
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Hi,erb123 I have been told by a specialist that I have ocd but this feels so real I keep feeling like I want to come out to my girl friend but I don’t want to my heart loves her and my two kids very much, but my thoughts say I don’t,and that I am in denial and to come out, and make it easier for my self I feel like i am going Crazy. I have had this for 2 years and a half now and still struggling with this, I have been straight all my life this just don’t make any since. I read up on Google and it said that sexuality is fluid and can change my head is stuck on this idea atm.
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Hey Kyle, I’m so sorry to hear this😞 It’s so hard when you’ve been struggling for that length of time as well. Can I ask, are you seeing a therapist? I would just hesitate to give you advice as I am not qualified to do so. BUT I’ve seen a lot of OCD advocates and therapists say that it’s worth listenening to your values rather than your thoughts and feelings! You don’t need to figure this out or make any decisions right now when you’re struggling this way. I have been struggling for over a year now with ROCD and you’re right, sometimes it does feel so real. And it’s hard. But like I said before, you just got to take it one day at a time and show yourself compassion even when OCD is telling you that you don’t deserve that. You do!
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Looking back, I realize I’ve had OCD since I was 7. though I wasn’t diagnosed until I was 30. As a kid, I was consumed by fears I couldn’t explain: "What if God isn’t real? What happens when we die? How do I know I’m real?" These existential thoughts terrified me, and while everyone has them from time to time, I felt like they were consuming my life. By 12, I was having daily panic attacks about death and war, feeling untethered from reality as depersonalization and derealization set in. At 15, I turned to drinking, spending the next 15 years drunk, trying to escape my mind. I hated myself, struggled with my body, and my intrusive thoughts. Sobriety forced me to face it all head-on. In May 2022, I finally learned I had OCD. I remember the exact date: May 10th. Reading about it, I thought, "Oh my God, this is it. This explains everything." My main themes were existential OCD and self-harm intrusive thoughts. The self-harm fears were the hardest: "What if I kill myself? What if I lose control?" These thoughts terrified me because I didn’t want to die. ERP changed everything. At first, I thought, "You want me to confront my worst fears? Are you kidding me?" But ERP is gradual and done at your pace. My therapist taught me to lean into uncertainty instead of fighting it. She’d say, "Maybe you’ll kill yourself—who knows?" At first, it felt scary, but for OCD, it was freeing. Slowly, I realized my thoughts were just thoughts. ERP gave me my life back. I’m working again, I’m sober, and for the first time, I can imagine a future. If you’re scared to try ERP, I get it. But if you’re already living in fear, why not try a set of tools that can give you hope?
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So after my ocd has become more prominent, it gets harder to fight through these compulsion’s everyday. I don’t go to therapy or take any medications and to be honest I am very lost in my journey on how to navigate life with ocd. I don’t want it to take over my life. I want to be able to feel like I can live without a weight on my chest and to finally feel like I can breathe. Any suggestions or words of advice is more than welcome.
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I need tips on how to really accept the uncertainty the ocd causes, even if it feels so bad like I might get in trouble for something , do I wanna be okay with that?
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