I sympathise completely. My ROCD has made me lose trust in myself and my choices and it can be so painful and disorientating. I’m still figuring out how to accept uncertainty but I guess that’s the hardest part of it all. One day at a time! If you want to talk then I’m all ears 😌
Hi,erb123 I have been told by a specialist that I have ocd but this feels so real I keep feeling like I want to come out to my girl friend but I don’t want to my heart loves her and my two kids very much, but my thoughts say I don’t,and that I am in denial and to come out, and make it easier for my self I feel like i am going Crazy. I have had this for 2 years and a half now and still struggling with this, I have been straight all my life this just don’t make any since. I read up on Google and it said that sexuality is fluid and can change my head is stuck on this idea atm.
Hey Kyle, I’m so sorry to hear this😞 It’s so hard when you’ve been struggling for that length of time as well. Can I ask, are you seeing a therapist? I would just hesitate to give you advice as I am not qualified to do so. BUT I’ve seen a lot of OCD advocates and therapists say that it’s worth listenening to your values rather than your thoughts and feelings! You don’t need to figure this out or make any decisions right now when you’re struggling this way. I have been struggling for over a year now with ROCD and you’re right, sometimes it does feel so real. And it’s hard. But like I said before, you just got to take it one day at a time and show yourself compassion even when OCD is telling you that you don’t deserve that. You do!
Yeah I am seeing a therapist am doing cbt with atm and on medication just want my life back
Ah okay! I don’t know if you went through this but I put a lot of pressure on therapy and medication sorting everything out for me. I would say “as soon as I start this and that, I’ll be better”… it’s easy to feel disappointed when things don’t sort themselves out instantly. I wish for my old self too and it seems we are both in a place where it’s hard to imagine not feeling like this. But we just got to trust the process. If u ever wanna reach out to someone throughout your journey then let me know x
Yeah I can fully relate to that setting my hopes on medication just to be disappointed
I will thank you