I was feeling better for a whole week , but today OCD stroke back again really hard , I was really hopeful I was going the right way , I feel sad

This just makes me feel hopeless , I was better and then all of a sudden , I’m back in the same hole that I was feeling before , I’m devastated

Yes , I get it , but it can be so frustrating to be way better then suddenly , I am depressed again

Thanks for the comment but I don’t want to get back to the place that I was , I was feeling hopeful for a whole week , I was feeling like I could see my friends , like I could watch movies , like I could go to restaurants , like I could at least get out of bed and I thought it was because of my medication , I was better for a week , I felt like 50% of my symptoms were gone , that I was walking towards the light and then this happened and today I’m feeling awful

@2022Recovery I’m sorry. I try to remind myself just because it seems dark doesn’t mean there isn’t light to find. I hope that helps at all! Praying for you!

@Leila G Thanks , but I was feeling so much better , I still had some issues but I could do things with more ease and I was feeling better , I don’t understand why this is going on with me , I am the nicest person to everyone and I was always obsessed with girls , this doesn’t make sense

Thanks , the biggest issue is that I believe I started having OCD about my OCD like I was feeling better for a week and then I am worried what if I lose the progress that I made over the past week and go back to where I was

@2022Recovery Practice makes progress not perfection! we are always going to have off days ocd related or not.

@Leila G i know that it’s scary but it’s ok to let yourself be scared. continue taking steps forward no matter how small.

@Leila G How can I take these small steps , sometimes I have days where I’m feeling good , but next day I’m feeling bad , does that mean I’ve taken a step backwards ?

@2022Recovery maybe it’s just a slower process to put your foot down for that next step. it can feel rocky and unbalanced but you’ll get there.

@Leila G Thank you , I have only been in medication so far and I haven’t started ERP , but for the last week my medication helped me a lot and I thought I was getting better but today I saw some stuff that triggered me and I had a bad day

@2022Recovery It’s not the end for you! you have so much to learn! Make the best of every moment.

I actually thought that since last week I was going to walk only forward and not backwards , I fear so much that I won’t be able to be back to how I was in these last few weeks

@2022Recovery I feel that. I’m feeling the same way. But it seems more times than not things will get better if you stick to the exposures. Sorry you’re going through this! It’s been really tough on me as well

@mattylee Ok , I actually haven’t started ERP but I was on medication and the medication itself help me to be better in these last few weeks so out of a sudden I was feeling better and I wasn’t bothered by these thoughts but today was a really bad and ruminating day , I suffer with SO-OCD and I miss so much falling in love with girls , I know that this is OCD but it all feels so real , I’ve suffered with other types before but this one is worse