I just saw something on the tv of a man ‘coming out’ to his parents and my brain just said “see this is what you want” and now I’m so confused I just ping from one thing to another and one makes me calm (when I think about staying with my partner) and the other makes me anxious (when I think about being gay). I can’t I keep flicking between to things. Idk what to do it feels like I’m holding on in a hurricane. I JUST WANT TO BE STRAIGHT! I miss when I first found my girlfriend and we’d wake up in the middle of the night and just talk for hours then be intimate and go back to sleep and do it all again the next morning. I miss it so much. But now it seems that I want that with a man but I don’t want to want it!

Yeah I’ve had really strong urges to, sometimes it doesn’t feel like an urge either and that feels even worse I’m getting anxious even thinking about it now. It just feels like this was a lengthy realisation process then actually SOOCD. Idk what to do anymore

Come out , now just relax with the anxiety let it fade , that’s ERP

I just feel like I’m going to have to come out. Could this really still all be OCD it feels like it’s real and has rationality behind it. Everyday it gets worse

I’m on the flip side but I know what you’re going through and I’m so sorry

Awn *🙁*, I’m so sorry that you’re in this place right now! I know it so hard. I love dreaming about boys, how they make me feel and I’ve always dreamed about a prince charming. But OCD destroys it. It wants to convince me that I actually want to be with girls. That’s SO distressing cause it feels overwhelming real. Have you ever had an urge to come out? Cause I already did, and that made me so anxious that I hate to remember the feeling

Shall I come out and live a gay life, because it feels like everything is in place I just need to press the button and maybe this will all go away

I am tho I must be there’s so much evidence and it feels like I like it idk. I just don’t know