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Yeah I’ve had really strong urges to, sometimes it doesn’t feel like an urge either and that feels even worse I’m getting anxious even thinking about it now. It just feels like this was a lengthy realisation process then actually SOOCD. Idk what to do anymore
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Just brave the uncomfortable, that was the best advice ever to me. Treat the urges just like your thoughts!
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Come out , now just relax with the anxiety let it fade , that’s ERP
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Yeah! That’s a perfect ERP :)
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I just feel like I’m going to have to come out. Could this really still all be OCD it feels like it’s real and has rationality behind it. Everyday it gets worse
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So so sorry for it. I know exactly what you’re feeling - the fear of being rational and real. But OCD will make it feels overwhelming real. If it didn’t seem real, you wouldn’t be worried about it. You’re not alone, I’m 100% with you, I know these feelings
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I’m on the flip side but I know what you’re going through and I’m so sorry
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Awn *🙁*, I’m so sorry that you’re in this place right now! I know it so hard. I love dreaming about boys, how they make me feel and I’ve always dreamed about a prince charming. But OCD destroys it. It wants to convince me that I actually want to be with girls. That’s SO distressing cause it feels overwhelming real. Have you ever had an urge to come out? Cause I already did, and that made me so anxious that I hate to remember the feeling
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Shall I come out and live a gay life, because it feels like everything is in place I just need to press the button and maybe this will all go away
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I think you should talk about this with a therapist! I’m not a professional, just a fellow suffer, so I don’t know how to help you with this :(. I just wanted to say that there’s hope and you’re not alone ❤️
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@milevl I knew I would be the rare case of HOCD where the thoughts were rational… I’m always different
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@BradOCD That’s a OCD tricky game: making you believe that you are the exception and recovery won’t be possible to you… That’s a lie. You get this
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I am tho I must be there’s so much evidence and it feels like I like it idk. I just don’t know
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I have been doing okay for the past week or so and was really happy i felt that i was getting back on track, but today i went on tiktok and i saw something triggering which was “i thought i was a lesbian for 4 years until i met my now boyfriend” and it triggered me very badly, i have been crying all day and i can’t seem to make myself feel okay. i feel like im lying to myself that im not lesbian and i truly want men, but when i get any thought about men it feels disgusting and wrong and not me, i don’t want men i feel so sick i want to get out of this. i always felt so happy as a lesbian im so stuck i don’t want to be with a man. i have a loving girlfriend i just want to be happy with her.
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I’m like 90% sure I’m just bi, more romantically inclined to men, mainly my bf who I wanna marry. But now my brain is like “if you lean into liking women or keep circling and circling for answers you’ll lose all attraction to men and your bf. You’re practically already a lesbian” I feel so tense and anxious I will admit I am talking to chat gpt out of desperation I’m scared of losing all attraction to him I don’t wanna be thinking about women. I don’t unless I’m really stressed cuz when I’m stressed my ocd can take advantage of that I can usually ground myself when I’m in the city with him but I’m back home for most of the summer and I can’t be physically close to him which usually reminds me that hey this is real this is what I really want in life. Him But then I panic and question I haven’t been here in a while tbh. I’m worried I don’t feel enough. I don’t like magic Mike all that much, I like softer guys. But now the fact I don’t like/get turned on by random men on tv but do women in lingerie really stresses me out and makes me worry I’m truly a lesbian but I’m not. Once I started getting to know my bf and my ex bf’s I really did truly genuinely like them and wanted to make out and everything. Idk can anyone relate to the not liking big buff men All my brain is repeating rn is “when he dies you’ll be able to date a woman, when you break up you’ll only wanna date women” and it’s stressing me out. It’s making me nauseous. I was doing well for about a couple days after I initially left but being at home has been so incredibly draining This might give you a vision of how stressful home is: I’ve been on nexplanon for 7 months ish? Only had very minimal spotting during a stressful school period. Today: fully bleeding, like a usual period. I haven’t had my period since having it put in. I wanna go back to my bf so badly rn. I’m so worried I’m faking or don’t feel enough. I’m learning what a healthy relationship looks like and I’m terrified I’m gonna up and leave him when we’re older cuz I’ll finally figure out that I’m a lesbian or smthn. Idk. Someone pls just help me out a tad
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I had a bad rumination spiral yesterday and went to bed hoping I’d start over in the morning. I was wrong. I had dreams about liking women and not being attracted to men anymore and my entire body has been in a state of anxiety since. I genuinely feel like I’m gay and just need to accept it. I have this urge to accept it. Maybe if I do I’ll get some sort of relief because this feeling is awful. I feel like my brain is telling me that I’ll get relief if I just accept it and come out. The intrusive thoughts don’t even seem to be around sexual images anymore, just to come out.
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