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- 3y
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- 3y
Hi, I relate! I woke feeling great too , at least harm thought free…then about an hour ago the feelings came up and I feel so scared and absolutely frustrated like what the hell…go away ocd you weren’t there all day and now you are. My advice, Remember OCD is a second by second illness so it can surprise us at any moment! So we need to treat it the same every time and number one watch out for the ruminating. That’s what we CAN control. You can stop it right turn the car around and start over. And also accept it’s OCD. And stay with the anxiety not the ruminating. The anxiety will pass like clouds do but If actively ruminate it’s just going to get crazier in our brains.You can do it, I put on Reid Wilson utune when I need reminders of how to work it. Hope that helps., you are not alone.
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- 3y
Tha my life very much, yes it is the absolute worst when OCD sneaks up, especially on days that are supposed to be happy (Christmas is my absolute favorite holiday, with the best memories growing up, so it’s extra painful when it tries to take that joy away from me). I always get into a place where I feel like my obsessions are the actual truth, and have a very hard time getting out of it, even though I know it’s often illogical. (e.g. if someone thinks, “oh if I can throw this ball 10 ft I must be Superman” and actually thinking you’re Superman because your thought said so, but replace Superman with something scary). That’s good advice- I usually try to just sit with it, but I think I was actively pushing away the fear today as I wanted to be happy, not terrified, but it happened anyway- so lesson learned. Thanks again!
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- 3y
Magical thinking. Yes, have had that. No fun. Do you have safe trusted friends or family you can reach out to?
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- 3y
Weirdly enough it’s really comforting to be able to put a name to it, and know that other people experience it too. I usually only experience magical thinking in terms of counting and lucky/unlucky numbers, so this was insanely terrifying today as I didn’t know what it was. Feels like my OCD realized I wasn’t giving it enough attention and tried to make it seem more real to make me notice it more. Unfortunately no one in my family knows I have OCD, but I do have friends who I can talk to. I’m feeling a bit better now, not 100%, but getting there. Thank you.
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- 3y
My line of thinking feels like: oh well what if it’s a sign telling me that my fears are real
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- 3y
I was like that in my early days I was like “ Ok I’m gonna try my hardest to get rid of this and if it don’t work I give up” so for ages I was gettin better til my dad died 4 months ago and OCD kicked me in the gut and then OCD said “you said you would give up time to leave your life”
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- 3y
*utube
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- 22w
I know I am going a bit cuckoo because my period is coming up, but lately it feels like every intrusive thought I have, I *like* it. Like I genuinely feel like I like it, and then I immediately panic because I start checking. Mentally, emotionally, whatever it is. And I know that is a compulsion. I *know* that. But it feels so real that I cannot stop myself. Every single time I check, it still feels like I like the thought, and it is driving me absolutely insane. It is especially the POCD thoughts. They feel so real. I feel like something is going on mentally, like some kind of confusion or glitch, because I swear I was not like this before. I would have intrusive thoughts, and they would feel real, but not *this* real. And I do not even know if this is normal. I know OCD is **supposed** to feel convincing. That is the whole thing. But I have never experienced it to this extreme. I have never gotten the same thought so many times and still felt like, “Oh my God, I did enjoy it,” even after checking a million times. It is like no matter how many times I check, it feels like I liked it. Especially during intimacy :( and it is making me lose it. Then I start thinking, “Well, I am in distress, so maybe that is proof it is not actually me.” But right after, I am like, “What if I am only panicking because I care about what society thinks and not because I actually have morals?” And then I spiral again, wondering if maybe I just care about how I am seen rather than who I am. I am panicking so much no today. I had to take my Xanax today for the first time in two months, and I needed three separate doses. I really need some support right now.
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- Date posted
- 18w
I’ve tried living in the uncertainty today & kept myself busy but I can’t shake this feeling that I’m about to lose control & act on my thoughts. I keep feeling like I need to check in to see how I feel & keep my self safe & when I’m near my trigger it feels like I’m being pulled into doing it & feels like I want to but I’m not using compulsions. My thoughts feel like my own & feeling like I’ll be like this forever. Can someone relate or give advice 😩
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- 16w
I sometimes see posts on here of people saying their OCD fears becoming true and it’s so so triggering for me. It makes me question if I ever had OCD and if I’m just faking it. I’ve tried to accept that my fear was real. Okay? Before I knew this was OCD, I really TRIED to accept it as a part of myself because I figured if I was even having those thoughts, it must be true. But in reality it just made me feel worse in the end. It wasn’t until several hours/few days after accepting the thoughts as true did I realize they were not and how uncomfortable it made me identifying with them that way, so eventually I went back into the rumination cycle. And I’ve done this multiple times. No matter how much I’ve accepted it as real, I never come to a conclusion in the end and I just get 10x more miserable. And I am still so scared of my fear coming true as those peoples did. But I know that’s what we all fear, otherwise we wouldn’t be here. And with a new fear I just developed, (all in the realm of the same theme) I’ve also tried to accept it as real when I felt SUPER convinced and even though it felt excruciatingly real, there was a part of me that couldn’t fully believe it, because I just know viscerally that it’s not. But the feeling of it being real is just too powerful and it overmastered any ounce of insight I had left. It wasn’t until my OCD spike calmed down when I was able to see through the viel. I hate this. I have no desire to do anything that my thoughts tell me. I know what I want to be, want to do, and it’s the opposite of those OCD thoughts. But these triggering posts won’t leave. (Not really the publishers fault, it’s my ritual that I engage in). They make me come all back to square one (if I wasn’t there already) and question if I’m using this as an excuse. I don’t want to do what my OCD tells me to do, but my brain just spits, “you’re just convincing yourself you don’t want this!” as it so often now does. I’m so tired. Please give me my old self back. Please give me 100% certainty that none of this is real and my fears are not at all based in reality. My brain cannot accept uncertainty and will not leave me alone. My brain is raged and powerless without knowing why, and spiels that anger back on me to get a reaction, and when it gets what it wants, the cycle continues. And goes way longer than I had bargained for :(
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