I dont know what I am deep down, there is no deep down to look into, its all messed up. I literally dont have any core values, morals character etc. I just feel gay and trans. I can accept being gay but when I accept that it dosent stop there and takes me to feeling like Im also trans as the next and final step. Fuck Ive already completely discarded my old life as not real or like a trial version and that I was living in a bubble these 21 years and whatever is happening now is how I was supposed to percieve the world this whole time. It feels like theres a big hole in my brain, like something is missing. Dont know what it is, but its an extremely uncomfortable feeling. It feels like I want to be those things and will act them out if given the chance. Ughhh Can someone with ocd feel like they dont have it, all the time for months? Im not talking about simply doubting it.