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Fellow parent here with ocd ❤️ I have a two year old. You’re not alone. Mine started about 6 months in as well. I’m so sorry you’re dealing with this. It is the worst 😓
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It’s just terrible. Everything was fine. In my 32 years of life I never struggled with ocd before and then one day poof. When I look back I can see ocd like symptoms, but I also had general anxiety disorder. It’s so hard for my wife to understand but she’s been so supportive. It still takes a toll on her though. I’m thinking I will try meeting a NOCD therapist here soon. Since this started I’ve had multiple subtypes, but this one is the main one and really sticks. 😞😞😞 I hate this. I didn’t have an extremely present father growing up, and wanted to be everything I didn’t have but needed to my son. I feel like I could maybe have another kid if I knew for sure it was going to be a boy. Somehow this makes this slightly more bearable, but I couldn’t imagine having a girl 😭😭😭😭😔😔😔
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@Ocdislame - This is my exact story. 38 years old, never thought I had OCD...then BAM, it hit me hard one day, and hasnt gone away. I have 2 children, and it's vey difficult. I just started Therapy here though, so helping it works.
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@Ocdislame I’m here if anyone on this post ever wants to chat. I really appreciated everyone’s response on this post, it certainly made me feel a lot less alone to know there are other people and other parents experiencing the same type of torture.
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@Freemeofocd Yeah sure !
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You’re so brave. I have this theme and can’t imagine how terrifying it would be to have a child and deal with this. I’m so sorry you’re going through this, this theme has ruined my life as well.
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Yeah that’s what makes this one so bad. I’ve had multiple themes appear since then that have all since resolved. It’s easy for me to hit it with ERP when it’s something else. This one is tough though, and it always seems to linger. It adds to the question of if it’s OCD or not 😒
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@Ocdislame If we were really pedos we would enjoy the thoughts and not care, but instead we’re being tortured and living in hell. The reason it lingers is because we care so much about not hurting anyone and we need certainty that we never will.
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@Ocdislame Also, I’ve done a lot of research on ocd and studies have shown that people with ocd have less grey matter in their brains which is why we have so many intrusive thoughts and can’t stop thinking them. It’s not even us, it’s our brains malfunctioning.
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@Anxioushumanchels Yeah it’s weird because my ocd only focuses on my own kid. I don’t have it when it comes to other children. It just doesn’t bother me.
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Because you love and care about your child more than anything.
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I feel like I’ll never lead a normal life again with OCD, my thoughts have begun to be convince especially about POCD. I feel like so sad and down that this will be my life forever. I’ll never get to fall in love again without intrusive thoughts. I’ll never be worth falling in love with. I can never be intimate again. I’m just done, my life is over. I can’t even look at my nephew and niece anymore without the smile fading. It feels like I’m so nasty and then my brain convinces me this is how I feel. That there’s some part of me that is a p*do and that’s it. I’m a disgusting human being for that. I just feel hopeless
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Please read this. I’ve had ocd pretty much a lot of my life but never knew what it was until my senior year of highschool. I’m 21 with 2 kids and i believe i’ve had pocd a little bit before my daughter was born (which was 8 months ago). It made me start looking at all kids differently and i hate it. But it really started triggering me about 3 months ago. I’ve been thinking if i’d intentionally touched or harmed my kids the wrong way, or any kids for that matter. This started giving me false memories (or at least hope they are). I’ve been having panic attacks, yelling at myself, punching walls, praying, and even thoughts of ending my own life. I grew up in a severe toxic household throughout my childhood and teenage life. I’ve never wished that on my kids since i became a dad. I wanna give them the life i never got. I look back my photos of my children and i feel like i’m a complete fraud of a dad. I cannot look at my kids or be around them a lot of times. I can’t hold my daughter right. I can’t change their diaper when they need it. Even my son came and was hugging on me the other night while i was watching tv and i acted like a stranger to him. I can very little do this stuff sometimes because it’s either i get relief or i push my thoughts as far back as i can. I get scared if i did something to not just my kids, but any other kids in the past. I have such a a great life and such a beautiful family. It was hard and stressful at first being young with a family but i couldn’t be more thankful at all for them. I’m just so lost and stressed right now that i just don’t know what to do anymore
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Hi everyone, I’m Cayla. I’m a mom that’s lived with OCD since childhood, but my breaking point came more recently after having my son. I was consumed by terrifying thoughts—What if I hurt him? What if I did something awful without realizing it? I was so afraid of my own mind that I couldn’t be alone with him. The shame and exhaustion were unbearable, and I convinced myself I was broken. In 2024, I finally sought help. ERP therapy at NOCD was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done, but it saved my life. Even now, I have tough days, but I know I don’t have to be ruled by OCD. When my 12 year old daughter began showing signs of OCD, I felt overwhelmed with guilt. I never wanted her to go through what I had, but I knew what to do. I told her that I have OCD too and made sure she knew it wasn’t her fault—and that she wasn’t alone. One of the hardest parts of this journey was trusting someone else with my daughter’s OCD. I knew how vulnerable it feels to share intrusive thoughts, and I wanted her to feel safe. Her NOCD therapist was able to establish trust and genuine empathy from the start, and that relationship gave her the confidence to face ERP head-on. Seeing her build that trust made me certain she was in the right hands. ERP has helped both of us reclaim our lives, and it is beautiful to see my daughter managing her condition and making visible progress. Parenting with OCD while raising a child with OCD isn’t talked about enough, but I know so many parents are struggling with these same challenges. If you have questions about managing OCD while parenting, helping your child through ERP, or breaking cycles of guilt, drop them below—I’d love to share what I’ve learned. I’ll be answering all of the questions I receive in real-time today 4-5pm ET.
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