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Fellow parent here with ocd ❤️ I have a two year old. You’re not alone. Mine started about 6 months in as well. I’m so sorry you’re dealing with this. It is the worst 😓
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It’s just terrible. Everything was fine. In my 32 years of life I never struggled with ocd before and then one day poof. When I look back I can see ocd like symptoms, but I also had general anxiety disorder. It’s so hard for my wife to understand but she’s been so supportive. It still takes a toll on her though. I’m thinking I will try meeting a NOCD therapist here soon. Since this started I’ve had multiple subtypes, but this one is the main one and really sticks. 😞😞😞 I hate this. I didn’t have an extremely present father growing up, and wanted to be everything I didn’t have but needed to my son. I feel like I could maybe have another kid if I knew for sure it was going to be a boy. Somehow this makes this slightly more bearable, but I couldn’t imagine having a girl 😭😭😭😭😔😔😔
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@Ocdislame - This is my exact story. 38 years old, never thought I had OCD...then BAM, it hit me hard one day, and hasnt gone away. I have 2 children, and it's vey difficult. I just started Therapy here though, so helping it works.
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@Ocdislame I’m here if anyone on this post ever wants to chat. I really appreciated everyone’s response on this post, it certainly made me feel a lot less alone to know there are other people and other parents experiencing the same type of torture.
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@Freemeofocd Yeah sure !
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You’re so brave. I have this theme and can’t imagine how terrifying it would be to have a child and deal with this. I’m so sorry you’re going through this, this theme has ruined my life as well.
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Yeah that’s what makes this one so bad. I’ve had multiple themes appear since then that have all since resolved. It’s easy for me to hit it with ERP when it’s something else. This one is tough though, and it always seems to linger. It adds to the question of if it’s OCD or not 😒
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@Ocdislame If we were really pedos we would enjoy the thoughts and not care, but instead we’re being tortured and living in hell. The reason it lingers is because we care so much about not hurting anyone and we need certainty that we never will.
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@Ocdislame Also, I’ve done a lot of research on ocd and studies have shown that people with ocd have less grey matter in their brains which is why we have so many intrusive thoughts and can’t stop thinking them. It’s not even us, it’s our brains malfunctioning.
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@Anxioushumanchels Yeah it’s weird because my ocd only focuses on my own kid. I don’t have it when it comes to other children. It just doesn’t bother me.
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Because you love and care about your child more than anything.
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My struggles with OCD began in childhood, but it wasn’t until after giving birth to my first child at 30 that I finally received a diagnosis. For years, I suffered in silence with intense anxiety, insomnia, and intrusive thoughts, but because my compulsions were mostly mental—constant rumination, reassurance-seeking, and avoidance—I didn’t realize I had OCD. I experienced Pure O, where my mind would latch onto terrifying thoughts, convincing me something was deeply wrong with me. After my son was born, I was consumed by intrusive fears of harming him, even though I loved him more than anything. Seven weeks into postpartum, I hit a breaking point and ended up in the emergency room, where I was finally diagnosed. For the first time, everything made sense. I didn’t discover exposure and response prevention (ERP) until years later when my son developed Germ OCD during COVID. I went through the program myself first, and it completely changed my life. ERP helped me sit with my intrusive thoughts instead of reacting to them, breaking the cycle that had controlled me for so long. Life isn’t perfect, but it’s so much better than before. I can finally be present instead of trapped in my head. Now, I’m working on trusting myself more and handling challenges without fear of “losing control.” As I prepare to help my daughter start therapy, I feel empowered knowing I’m giving my children the support I never had. If you know you have OCD but haven’t started therapy yet, what’s holding you back?
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I’ve always had ocd. But never experienced pocd until after I got pregnant and was fixing to deliver. Anyone else? I’ve been struggling with this for almost 2 years 😩 and Prozac gives me heart palpitations I’m at my breaking point. Idk who I am anymore. And it’s so hard having to be a mother of two on top of not wanting to do anything bc my brain tells me everything I’m doing is inappropriate ☹️
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I have to be alone with my children tomorrow and I'm scared. Harm OCD has me panicking and ruminating. I don't want to hurt my babies they mean everything to me. I keep fighting for them, I got a better job for them and I want to create a better life for them. I'm so afraid that I might hurt them so I need to be away from them but I also don't want to be away from them. The thoughts and images are so much. I'd rather die before I hurt them. Accepting the uncertainty of possibly hurting them is not something I can accept or live with. And it doesn't help having existential ocd because that says none of it matters anyway. I just want to be the old me, I hate this disorder I hate this disease I hate me for having these thoughts. I'm sorry for ranting. I just need to get it out. I hate this worry disorder!
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