I took medicine for 4 years each year I changed medicine cause the medicene wasn’t working I wasn’t getting better I even had my mom come in and tlk to my doctor wit me cause I was so miserable I couldn’t function I was so depressed to and I was telling everyone I was miserable that I wasn’t getting better and everyone just moved on wit there lives I had no support from family I have no friends trying to get a therapist was difficult I could barely get up during the day let alone leave once a week to tlk to a therapist I was barely able to make it to my doctors appointments to get my medication to it was like I was screaming for help and ppl just watched I staid locked up in my room and since ppl couldn’t see me it wasn’t happening there lives go on and they live they work they have mental freedom i eventually admitted myself into a mental hospital which haveing contamination ocd and haveing all your stuff touched and then takeing all your stuff out of there individual bags that I worked so hard to seperatly pack and wash my hands when touching certain things to keep them clean was so traumatizeing to me and they couldn’t even help me they had no help for ocd they switched my meds and had made me try to do my dressing rituals in a dirty bathroom floor wit no clean spaces for my hygiene and haveing a roommate I had no therapist to help me wit this I just sat in there and suffered just for them to discharge me telling me they didn’t have the resources to help me and a referral to an ocd facility in Chicago which I couldn’t go to cause they didn’t accept my insurance and I was in a horrible relationship that I couldn’t get out of cause I was barely able to function my ocd has always been so debilitating I’ve never been able to work so I couldn’t work I was on ssi but then it stopped for some reason I appealed it but round this time I was so sick I couldn’t do anything which made it worse they took my only way of provideing for myself so for a few years I just suffered alone then finally my mom helped me get my ssi back it’s very aggravating explaining my ocd cause ppl don’t understand it and they don’t understand that it makes my life very hard but I got it back since I was technically homeless they only gave me 533 dollars they told me to get more I’d have to show I’m paying rent then they’ll give me more since I’ll be paying more but you can’t save any money to even be able to move into anywere and nowere is gonna let you live there if you can’t afford it so that made me feel even worse I can’t even function and they were makeing it so difficult for me to just get the money I needed to live there’s no places I could afford that were clean there mostly all dirty and bug infested which kept me in a horrible liveing situation to even be able to get better from my ocd my life has been so difficult just from my ocd all I ever wanted was to get help I’ve always tried I’ve always had to pretend and then I gave up I’m tired of working on things that are so simple to normal ppl I was tired of the way doctors and hospitals were treating me I was tired of begging for help and noone listening I just found out of exposure and response therapy and that there’s actual ocd facility’s and that there’s ocd specialists out there but nowere will accept my insurance and I can’t afford to pay for any treatment on my own it shouldn’t be this difficult to get the proper care I need!!