I have just seen on you tube that it doesn’t matter if people wasn’t born gay they can change later in life I am going to keep praying to god I can’t take this anymore I have a girl friend and two kids this hell needs to end

Hey you seem to have good advice could you help me too i saw this pretty girl on Instagram who is funny too and the thought that came which didn’t feel intrusive at all and felt like thats my truth and i just run away from it was that oh she’s funny and pretty nice person to date?!? Like someone straight would think nice person to be friends with but someone like me who i guess is in denial and not accepting it thought the former and i was like would i date her?!? Seems fun?!? Do i want to date her?!? And i should have said no if its ocd but I didn’t have an answer and it felt like even if there was one it would have been yes or it was and I don’t know how ocd can do this and not my denial cause it feels like i want it and also like if i say no to it or question it thats wrong and i am faking it cause that particular thought felt to real to be fake…

@Brave through Hi! So I’ve been 100% straight my entire life and in the beginning of this year when my ocd was the worst it’s ever been I randomly started getting groinal responses and major anxiety whenever I would see a pretty girl. At first I was terrified and thought I was turning into a lesbian, but then when I stopped caring if I was a lesbian or not the groinal responses and anxiety completely went away. Ocd only targets what we care about most, so if you’re terrified of being gay it’s going to try to cause doubt and make you think you’re gay, when you’re not. I recommend you just agree with the thoughts and try your hardest not to ruminate, the more you fight the thoughts the more they will appear. I know how scary these thoughts and feelings can be but they’re not real and literally don’t mean anything.

@Anxioushumanchels Idk its so hard to believe myself like i see you are confident in who you are but i feel like i dont even believe in what i am anymore and like this friend of mine who is completely straight has a habit of calling everyone baby and she did to me as well and i felt like i was ignoring what she was saying cause her saying baby which is the most normal thing for someone to say was affecting me and i was denying it because i might be feeling something and it felt like i was and i knew i was but still denying it and avoiding it cause i am scared?!? Idk how to eveb put it but i think it was real and it felt too real to deny it and then that feels like i do have something for the same sex cause thats why i am running from it and its like that just comes as proof and then this is such a small thing that too from someone who is straight now for someone who isn’t and says something more than this how will i react why do i feel as if i will like it or be okay with it cause a lot of my friends who aren’t staraight say things in joke i take it in joke but it pings me in ways where it feels like i want it and then what all this was a lie …?!? Sometimes it feels like I don’t even believe in ocd and this is just me in high denial… what do i do?!? Just earlier saying i never want these thoughts to coming to a point where i feel like i might want or like then what does that mean?!? Like what am i ?!! Am i even the straight girl i was once?!?

@Brave through Ocd is an intrusive feeling disorder, it will try to convince you of literally anything. It will cause fake groinal responses, weird thoughts and feelings in your head, etc. None of this is real. The problem is that you’re giving these thoughts and feelings so much energy and believing everything your ocd tells you. Whoever you were before the ocd is who you truly are, don’t let ocd convince you otherwise. I’m so sorry you’re dealing with this, I know it’s beyond confusing..