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I think those people were always gay they just tried hiding it. I wouldn’t believe everything you hear on YouTube, people make stuff up all the time.
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Hey you seem to have good advice could you help me too i saw this pretty girl on Instagram who is funny too and the thought that came which didn’t feel intrusive at all and felt like thats my truth and i just run away from it was that oh she’s funny and pretty nice person to date?!? Like someone straight would think nice person to be friends with but someone like me who i guess is in denial and not accepting it thought the former and i was like would i date her?!? Seems fun?!? Do i want to date her?!? And i should have said no if its ocd but I didn’t have an answer and it felt like even if there was one it would have been yes or it was and I don’t know how ocd can do this and not my denial cause it feels like i want it and also like if i say no to it or question it thats wrong and i am faking it cause that particular thought felt to real to be fake…
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@Brave through Hi! So I’ve been 100% straight my entire life and in the beginning of this year when my ocd was the worst it’s ever been I randomly started getting groinal responses and major anxiety whenever I would see a pretty girl. At first I was terrified and thought I was turning into a lesbian, but then when I stopped caring if I was a lesbian or not the groinal responses and anxiety completely went away. Ocd only targets what we care about most, so if you’re terrified of being gay it’s going to try to cause doubt and make you think you’re gay, when you’re not. I recommend you just agree with the thoughts and try your hardest not to ruminate, the more you fight the thoughts the more they will appear. I know how scary these thoughts and feelings can be but they’re not real and literally don’t mean anything.
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@Anxioushumanchels Idk its so hard to believe myself like i see you are confident in who you are but i feel like i dont even believe in what i am anymore and like this friend of mine who is completely straight has a habit of calling everyone baby and she did to me as well and i felt like i was ignoring what she was saying cause her saying baby which is the most normal thing for someone to say was affecting me and i was denying it because i might be feeling something and it felt like i was and i knew i was but still denying it and avoiding it cause i am scared?!? Idk how to eveb put it but i think it was real and it felt too real to deny it and then that feels like i do have something for the same sex cause thats why i am running from it and its like that just comes as proof and then this is such a small thing that too from someone who is straight now for someone who isn’t and says something more than this how will i react why do i feel as if i will like it or be okay with it cause a lot of my friends who aren’t staraight say things in joke i take it in joke but it pings me in ways where it feels like i want it and then what all this was a lie …?!? Sometimes it feels like I don’t even believe in ocd and this is just me in high denial… what do i do?!? Just earlier saying i never want these thoughts to coming to a point where i feel like i might want or like then what does that mean?!? Like what am i ?!! Am i even the straight girl i was once?!?
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@Brave through Ocd is an intrusive feeling disorder, it will try to convince you of literally anything. It will cause fake groinal responses, weird thoughts and feelings in your head, etc. None of this is real. The problem is that you’re giving these thoughts and feelings so much energy and believing everything your ocd tells you. Whoever you were before the ocd is who you truly are, don’t let ocd convince you otherwise. I’m so sorry you’re dealing with this, I know it’s beyond confusing..
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Seeking reassurance and ruminating will only make things worse.
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Thank you yeah I know I agree with you people know it doesn’t just come out of now where
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I keep having this weird feeling none stop that it’s most likely not HOCD and most my feelings. Like I’ve suffered none stop distress and unwanted thoughts the past few days. But those thoughts after a bit just feel weird not the kind of discomfort but are just their and stale. When I look at a guy I don’t feel anything but my thoughts sometimes compliment his looks or personality which makes me doubt my sexuality. I’ve never felt this weirded out. Because I’ve always been straight and still believe I am but I’ve never even had an emotional connection to someone of the opposite gender in fact. My view of the female body has been ruined with none stop pornography addictions. I don’t believe I’m gay but I feel like it may just be denial instead of HOCD but all my symptoms are literally HOCD. I don’t hate the idea of gay people but I can’t imagine or see my heart going off to like someone of the same sex. I haven’t really had any meaningful real life friends besides online but that also ended a few months ago. My only friend ever online that was my friend for the longest of time was a queer but I never really cared about what he liked. Like yes at some point I did try to challenge him with his own feelings but that didn’t last long I just accepted what he liked and moved on. I’ve never even touched let alone held a long conversation with a female. I’ve always been timid and shy around them but I can just say that towards male as well. The gay feelings feel so real. The thoughts feel a bit natural to me but I don’t want this. But I hate how I can’t just move on and be myself and love women when those thoughts demand attention and an answer. It won’t quit it. If I try to do a compulsion it calms down but it quickly becomes a problem again. I’m lonely I don’t have any friends or past relationships I can even think of helping me with the emotions. I still believe I’m straight and I just can’t see myself with a guy. It just doesn’t feel right for me despite my lack of experiences. I just wanna go back to how I was happy and loving girls and not having to question if it was a real feeling or just my natural timid nature. Everytime I think these distressing thoughts I always just wanna sit down and close my eyes and sleep. Because that’s where I can have peace of self. It sucks but I’m so exhausted of having to deal with emotional distress and I can’t even focus on my job as much. I want to meet new people discover my love for women again but I’m scared in the process I may discover I may be gay. Because deep down I know I wouldn’t ever be happy with myself if my greatest fears where confirmed. My dream of always being a father with a loving women and kids would be torn away by something I never asked for. Yes I’m religious, yes I come from a place that homosexuals are usually seen in a bad light. I just hate feeling this emotion that I may not be what I thought and having my dreams torn apart maybe true. I’ve read MUTIPLE articles about HOCD and seen MUTIPLE videos. I’ve come to the realization that I most likely have it. But it’s still hard when the feelings of maybe being gay maybe true you know? I hope I get better I hope I don’t suffer. I just wanna be happy with myself and loving females and I don’t wanna hate myself for feeling an emotion that never occurred to me more then a few times.
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I’ve completely lost myself. I can’t focus on my studies, I can’t go to the gym. Dang it I can’t even be around my male friends normally anymore. I got no idea why or how this happened but the only thing I know for sure is that I never questioned my sexuality neither doubted it. I never cared in general. I just liked girls. I keep testing and keep testing and keep testing my arousal but no matter how many times I see but I don’t feel the same way for guys that I do with girls my mind will always try to make me believe that I am gay. It’s like it’s forcing me into an identity I never asked for. But at the end of the day like my psychologist told me. Sexuality doesn’t change. So since I never felt anything for guys in my life it’s ocd. I’ve been up and down for 5 months now and while the last week I was feeling way better. Monday now and I’m back to zero. I just want to go back when everything was normal. I can’t keep living with this.
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Please don’t judge until you read this I have religious beliefs and I want to understand the lgbt community but my beliefs is that being lgbt is a lustful sin and I don’t like it. I have been trying to tell people I’m not trying be mean it’s just what I read in the Bible and what I believe. But I’m not gonna kick my friends out if they were to come out at any point. And I’m not trying to spread my beliefs but it is also my calling as a Christian to spread the gospel as well but I do believe that you can still be saved even if you’re lgbt if you believe in god but I worry about that because my god doesn’t want people to keep sining over and over again and I love people but I hate how they don’t understand me. So I just try and pray for them and hope they understand. I feel horrible so I never know if I want to go back to god or not.
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