The anxiety is so jarring man, someone please see my last post.

Man I get why youre so annoyed and pissed off but you literally dont know me, I havent even been on this app for a year, just for a few months, nor am I arrogant to accept help, i may have come of as that perhaps probably due to language barrier or my lack of ability to think clearly and just 4-5 months ago i was dying to see any therapist I couldve, researching for hours on end for any ocd therapist. I dont think im special but I do think my fears (not anymore I guess) came true and i actually realized Im gay. I dont ignore anyones advice, I get it, from your pov it may seem like that but you think I enjoy burning in anxiety attacks everyday nonstop, feeling suicidal and unhappy. It literally dosent seem like ocd which is what j was trying to understand how would a ocd therapist help when the thoughts came true. And If it is indeed ocd then my thoughts simultaneously came true with it. And I actually have an appointment with a ocd therapist tommorow, doubt it will help me with anything since its all true anyways.

@Imaan7 It doesn’t seem like you want to be sick, you very obviously want help and need to talk about what you’re feeling, but you also won’t listen. Again, you’re talking about your sexuality and how it came true and how you don’t have ocd. IT DOESNT MATTER IF IT CAME TRUE OR NOT! That is not the point and it never has been and so many people have told you that and you shrug it off. Your sexuality isnt the issue. It’s not. It doesn’t matter. Figuring that out isn’t going to make you happy. Your last sentence is more not listening. You don’t want it to help. You are looking for triggers and proof and validation in every single conversation you have. That’s the whole problem. You have to let go of the need to figure this out. You have to stop believing the lie that your sexuality is the reason you feel like this. Stop saying “it doesn’t seem like ocd”. You know good and well that it’s ocd. You’ve had people tell you over and over again that they feel the EXACT same way you do, but somehow you’re the special one on this ocd app who has all of the symptoms but no ocd? That’s why I’m telling you you’re being arrogant. There are people all around you on this app who know exactly how you feel and have so many good ideas on how to redirect your thinking. But you keep saying you don’t have ocd and your ocd beliefs were actually just true things about you. You’re the only one who managed to have every symptom of ocd but you’re actually just gay and you’re doomed forever because of that. Stop it! If it’s not OCD then go to an lgbt forum to talk about your sexuality or sign up to dating app and explore your newfound identity. You know dmn well you won’t and have no desire to but you’re ignoring everything and jumping into the delusion. You HAVE to wake up to this. You have to be willing to listen to us on here. You have to stop giving into your magical thinking. Your thoughts are not that powerful. You are not that powerful or special or damaged. You are not the ONE person who has it this way and you’re just not going to feel better if you don’t stop letting yourself believe this is all about your damn sexuality. It doesn’t matter. It’s not the issue. It doesn’t matter if it came true or not. Break this circle you’re in.

@💩 I understand all that, months ago your comment wouldve really really motivated me to seek help but i feel nothing and its not even the gay part thats bothering me as much thinking that im trans. And i dont even know what my core fear is besides feeling deeply embarrased that Im going to have to come out like that. Its giving me constant anxiety and depression.