I am so scared rn that I have purposely thought a thought.

I have a fear of touching people inappropriately. When I was walking by someone, I intentionally thought a sexual thought, then I started wondering if it would make me move my hips, and then they moved a tiny bit. Obviously nothing happened. But I’m convinced that was me snapping. What I don’t understand is why the fuck I made a choice to think the thought. Usually I’m terrified of walking by people and try to pass them quickly. What could make me think the thought? I don’t even think the thought was about the person. I’m confused and scared

I had a horrible thought and it was my own thought. I feel awful. Also my heart is racing all the time

i think my intrusive thoughts are real. what do i do now man