My POCD doesn't necessarily center around the fear of harming a child, just more the fear that I have an attraction to children. I'm terrified to masturbate because thats when the intrusive thoughts come the hardest, and it's like I don't trust myself to masturbate. Like my mind is telling me "you're going to get really horny and masturbate to a child"/"youre going to get really horny and seek out child porn". My sex drive has been completely shut off, and it's like I've lost all romantic attraction as well. I've had this pretty intense crush on one of my friends for a while and when I look at her/fantasize about her I can't feel anything :(