i’m sorry you feel this way! please do try journaling. it will help you sort all your thoughts out, and you can also use it when speaking with your therapist. it sounds so simple and unhelpful, i know, but it does make a difference. it’s easy to get our thoughts lost in an already busy mind and so this is a way to help up feel a little less out of control with our thoughts. maybe begin with how you feel and then create a list of all the questions in your head. doing this will also clear up your mind a bit. in regards to your worries, ocd is great at making us doubt how we feel. it sort of manipulates us in that sense lol but there are many people who would make themselves believe they liked the opposite gender before they came out. the difference here is that your ocd is added to the mix and is making things more difficult and confusing. it’s designed to make you overthink and question yourself. this is not a reflection of you! we just have a chemical imbalance in our brain that is causing us to have difficulty filtering out specific thoughts, therefore leaving them stuck in a loop in our heads. keep going with therapy! i wish you luck
Hey thanks for replying, What do you mean by "there are many people who make themselves believe they liked the opposite gender before they came out".
@Imaan7 many people who are a part of the lgbtq+ community have said that before they came out as gay they would date the opposite gender in an effort to convince themselves they were actually straight. they would even believe it at times but of course they eventually realized that there’s no changing who they like.
@norayusuf I think thats just happening to me now