I am back to rocd. I was having g literal panic attacks in front of him and I feel so embarrassed. Now he didn't text me back after an hour after I said I am scared and I am heartbroken bc I I afraid that means he doesn't care about me and I think and ruminate about all the times in the past where a guy didn't text me back and how horrible it felt. It feels so real and I was crying last night so much and I have been feeling anxiety everyday and even talking to him or when he wants to come see me at work I start freaking out and it suck I just want to be a normal girlfriend that doesn't have all of this. I cant tell if my feelings are valid and I'm scared I am crazy. Because after the hour he was very available for me and I just question why would he not text back after an hour and then text back quick? Oh God. I can't tell what's real please tell me what to do please tell me if this is ocd or not????

I just want to tell you that you should try to relax. Those are just thoughts and if your boyfriend loves you he will accept you as you are. I know it can be distressing but remember that you should not hide yourself and all your struggles from him actually he should help you going through this:)

Well as far as I could understand from your post he knows that you have ocd. But if he doesnt I would try to tell him it is something important. I dont have a girlfriend but I told myself if Im going to have one someday I will tell her about my ocd, some years ago I could never imagine that I would tell this someone but I also didnt accept that I have ocd today I accept and try to live with it as well as I can and I also would tell other persons about my ocd.

I’m sorry you’re struggling, o have been there! And I still do struggle from time to time. It is important to NOT share the specifics with your significant other as that can most likely turn into a compulsion!! If you feel compelled to share your thoughts, you have to resist otherwise things will get worse for you. I promise I’ve been down that road. One thing you can say is “I’m having a hard mental health day” and allow him to comfort you without sharing your specific thoughts!! This is very important to remember

I wouldnt say that it causes harm. Of course I wouldnt share all ocd thoughts but telling my partner that doubting her love for me would be okay. The most important thing in your relationship should be that you dont suffer alone without your partner knowing it.