PLEASE HELP ME Man I was so close! I’m trying to get my post count down to zero basically. And I am at six posts in 24 hours and it has gone down from double digits. But I had a scary experience in my head. I mean anyway sorry I don’t know what I was gonna say there. But someone was asking how to get their guy to look at them. Ice actually saw this on Facebook it’s a common enough subject so it pops up anywhere. I’m scared boobs are I don’t want big boob women to be sexy I was remembering the trend of I’m scared I must be I don’t wanna be bisexual! And I’m scared of what’s in my heart because of this I’m scared I do but I’ve seen all nice I said nice I don’t want women to be nice looking I’ve seen all kinds of women in shape and out of shape naked and it doesn’t do it for me. And any anyway I’m just scared I’m lying and I don’t wanna be lying to myself but I don’t want that life I don’t want that to be sexy to me! But I remember the trend where you drop a towel in front of your boyfriend naked and they stop playing their video games and go after you and I’m scared all of them but none of them are better than my guy but I’m front of I thought it was certain kind of woman who is really tall curvy and I’m scared I do I don’t like it I don’t want long legs I don’t want dig perky boobs natural or otherwise. And I’m scared of had a feeling in my brain and somewhere else I want I’m hoping it’s not my heart but I’m scared I had a feeling like that is and I don’t want it to be sexy. And then I’m scared I am and I said nothing and I almost smile about it but I don’t wanna be bisexual! I don’t want to I don’t want boobs to sexy and I want I can a muscular is are but at them and to be to my guy but they’re not sexy and they just bigger and more muscular and tanner but that doesn’t equate to sexier to me but I don’t wanna think those kind I don’t wanna have a type of woman in my head that is I don’t want any kind of woman to be sexy in that capacity I’m frightened of the feelings I had like in my brain and I keep saying heart I don’t want this to migrate to my heart I want it to stay in my head! I mean I would rather it leave but I don’t want to go anywhere else I’m scared I’m smiling I said but I don’t like Albans I don’t like any kind and I keep imagining a woman with her hip out and she’s like holding the towel and she drops it in my I’m smiling in my brains acting like it is but it’s not sexy that weird feeling isn’t coming back but why did it pop up at all I’m scared I don’t imagine doing what guys and babies do and I even had my mouth open I don’t want boobs I don’t want any kind of boobs to be sex! I don’t want to be bisexual! I’m scared of the smiling in the feeling I felt I’m scared there is a certain but I’ve looked at all kinds of women naked whether they’re in shape or not all height or weights all ethnicities they’re not that kind of sexy and I’m frightened

Hi everyone, I’ve been really anxious lately, and I just need to get this out of my head. Someone recently told me that maybe I’m bisexual — that I might be more sexually attracted to women, but more romantically attracted to men. That bisexuality is not 50/50. And ever since I heard that, I’ve been spiraling. The thing is: I don’t want this to be true. It scares me. I don’t feel romantic attraction to women, I’ve never wanted to be in a relationship with one. But yes, I get aroused by fantasies involving women — and that makes me feel broken or like I’ve been lying to myself. I love my boyfriend deeply, I don’t want to lose him. I want to feel fully connected to him, physically and emotionally. But now I’m stuck in this obsessive loop of questioning: “What if I’m just in denial?” “What if I’m not really straight?” “What if this is why my libido is low?” It’s exhausting, and I don’t know if this is OCD, anxiety, or if something is fundamentally wrong. Has anyone else felt this split — romantic feelings for one gender, sexual feelings for another? I feel so alone and scared. Thanks for listening.

I wouldn’t really say I have SO-OCD, but it manifests in some areas of my TOCD. Like if I see a woman for example my thoughts will go “what if I like her but as a man?” like my thoughts say I’m a straight man instead of a straight woman. And it’s really bothering me. If I see an attractive woman my brain will re-wire and imagine myself as a man looking at an attraction woman and it gets super uncomfortable that I have to like shake my head and say “no no no no no” multiple times to get the thought out. I know that counts as a compulsion but it’s hard to not do it because it’s so triggering. Now I don’t mind if I like women, however I’m really scared that I’m actually a straight man who likes women (or at least a bisexual man, considering I like men) and I hate it because I don’t want to be a man. Like I’ll think of my desired relationship as a woman dating a man but my OCD will switch it up to me being the man dating the woman, which is the opposite of what I want. I don’t want to be a man at all and I don’t want to date a woman, both of those are the opposite of my desires, but I’m still so scared. I’ll accept myself if I actually like women and am a bisexual woman, however I heard that being bisexual can mean being trans which scares me (for the record it was said in reddit by a sub which is mainly focused on a pseudoscientific phenomenon, that is still believed by the members to be true, so it’s definitely not a trustworthy statement, but my OCD will use anything to work against me) Does anyone here relate a little? 🥲

I’ve always been straight my whole life and I’ve never considered being different nor have i ever had attraction to women but lately I’ve been going through a lot of different thoughts that definitely feel unlike me. When I was a kid and I don’t remember how old I was but im sure like 7 or 8 and my cousin that was I very close to had me do inappropriate things to her that I didn’t really know anything about at that time. After that happened to me I knew it was wrong and I felt so bad and disgusting and scared but at the time I didn’t really know anything and I remember when my mom would drop me over my grandmas house while she would work, I’d take my grandma’s phone and I looked up kissing videos and I saw the kissing scene from Jennifer’s body and looking back on it I just feel so much shame and confusion bc it certainly feels embarrassing. My cousin always liked girls but I never did. I loved sitting and watching Disney movies preferably princess and the frog and wanting to be a princess getting married to a prince just like in all the movies. I knew who I was from a very young age and that never changed about me. When I learned what porn was at an older age, I started becoming hyper sexual so I watched tutorials videos of women to learn how to pleasure myself. When I was a kid and to now I’ve never looked at women in that way. I’ve had best friends and sleepovers it’s never been anything sexual, romantic, or intimate. Just simply innocent friendships and hangouts. When I got to high school that’s when i started remembering what happened to me and i remember how the girls would talk about their first kisses and i remembered my sa and how I felt so scared to say anything to anyone bc I didn’t want people to think badly of me simply bc my first kiss was like that so I would simply just not say anything. Lately I’ve been having obsessive thoughts out of nowhere wondering if my sexuality has changed or if im bi or is it just my thoughts? I’ve always had ocd and even in school, the kids would pick at me because I always eat my food in order and by the lightest color. But lately it’s gotten worse. It’s like I’ve never had thoughts like this nor have I ever been like this. Not even when I was a child. And humans question themselves of course but this feels like something different. I’ve gotten distant from my best friend who’s also a girl and I’ve just cut off social media and female friend relationships at all because for some reason my brain tells me that it’s “gay” to even hug your friends or hold their hands anymore like you used to do when you were kids. I even got to a point where I would watch women porn and try to masturbate just to see if I was attracted to it or not like that’s how bad the thoughts got. It felt like an evil voice was in my head trying to convince me and sweet talk me to do and enjoy those disgusting things even when my body didn’t want to. I eventually had confided in my bf about it because he was also a victim of sa and so he helped me through it and I stopped doing it but then and my bf (now ex) broke up a couple days ago and now ive been dealing with this alone which feels like the hardest part for me. So I’ve texted my bff a lot to catch up because I’ve been distant dealing with this and I was just checking my phone awaiting for her responses to my texts because she tends to type slow and usually I never think anything of it because I used to check my phone all the time when I would await my boyfriends reply or simply just a text from him and so now im having thoughts like “why am I awaiting her texts” “do I like my friend?” Its just so many obsessive thoughts and so much overthinking that I am getting tired of because It’s been going on for months so I know this is a lot but please if anyone can please help me I beg, it would be such a great help appreciated bc this has became a really big impact on my life and not in a good way lol. Thank you !!