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I think it is normal to second guess situations even if you are confident that you love your girlfriend. I think it’s best to examine these intrusive thoughts and try and understand where they are coming from. I think the fear you get from the thought proves how much you do care for your girlfriend !!
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Thank you... I try to do that! I just hate myself so much when this happens because it usually ends up with false memories about thoughts! So fun!!!!
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what are you dealing with :(
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Hi! Thank you for replying.... You are the first person to reply to my cry in these past 24hrs.... I'm so sorry for being annoying but I have been dealing with guilt over thoughts...
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no problem !!
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i’m down to listen !!
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Thank you.... Basically, I have this friend who I am really close to and during one of our bonding moments, I had this thought of "do I have a crush on him? Maybe we are more suited for each other. Maybe I should break up with my gf" and I have these.... False memories, I think that I agreed with such thoughts.... Because I can't remember what happened....what was my reaction, if it makes sense... Months later, I remembered this and I feel so guilty.... My gf is one of the most beautiful and amazing women you could ever meet.... Plus I'm gay and I keep saying that to my friend who sometimes jokes I'm bi (I'm afraid that he likes me.... He has given some evidence that he does but I don't like to say anything because I'm not sure)
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Hey! I am here too. Don’t worry it’s a phase I promise you will get better.
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Thank you.... Do you mind if I ask your opinion about something?
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@deadwithocd Sure please go ahead
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@deadwithocd You saying something ?
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My rocd is spiraling so bad i feel like I’m terrible and can’t recover 😓 idk wuts real anymore yet ik i never wanna leave my man😓whats wrong w me
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Hey everyone, First time posting here! Wanted to share my story for some support but also to hopefully make others feel less alone. In short - my ROCD has made such a mess of my personal life. I was in a great relationship until spring of last year, at which point we separated mainly due to my ROCD. I struggled heavily with OCD about 10 years ago (harm based intrusive thoughts, sexual orientation ocd, etc). It took a lot of work but I was able to mostly overcome my struggles and truthfully, hadn’t given ocd much thought since then. I thought I was cured. And then 10 years later I am in a very fulfilling relationship with a girl I really love, but at about the year mark in my relationship things really changed. She wanted to have a conversation about next steps (moving in, marriage, kids, etc) and at that point my brain just went into panic mode and the ocd took over. From that point on, I was constantly scanning for red flags, felt very reserved when it came to any sort of statement or commitment and tended to avoid anything that would indicate I was committed to a long term future. It was not that I didn’t love it was just that my ocd was doing anything to keep me from making a big commitment. It eventually got a point where we had a big conversation about breaking up or staying together and my OCD convinced me that it was safer and that I would do less harm to her if we ended things, which was incredibly devastating to me. At the time I felt like my obsessing over small red flags were normal and that I needed to protect myself. I just had no clue it was ROCD. I spent the next 8 months missing her and kicking myself for my mistakes, and I eventually got the courage to reach out and see if she’d be willing to talk again, which she was. But the problem is, at this point I still didn’t know it was ocd. So when we talked again I was still plagued by ROCD as all the same thoughts and feelings came flooding back. We tried to talk through things but once again I was unable to make any sort of commitment to the future so it went nowhere. Once again, I am feeling very sad and angry at myself for not being able to handle ROCD. I feel like I let it control me twice and has robbed me of a lot of happiness and hurt someone I care very much about. I understand it’s probably not best to just look at ourselves with anger and guilt all the time but it’s hard not to when you feel like you just caused so much harm. Anyone feel like they can relate? Or if anyone is going through something similar I am happy to chat as ROCD can really be tricky. Thanks
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Good morning. Anyone struggle with ROCD? When I think about what I have done in the past, I feel immense guilty (I feel the tightness in my chest) and have the urge to tell my partner about it, even if my partner says she doesn’t need to know if it is going to hurt her and that I need to talk to my therapist about it first. Any suggestions on how to manage the urge/urgency? Thanks!
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