what are you dealing with :(
Hi! Thank you for replying.... You are the first person to reply to my cry in these past 24hrs.... I'm so sorry for being annoying but I have been dealing with guilt over thoughts...
no problem !!
i’m down to listen !!
Thank you.... Basically, I have this friend who I am really close to and during one of our bonding moments, I had this thought of "do I have a crush on him? Maybe we are more suited for each other. Maybe I should break up with my gf" and I have these.... False memories, I think that I agreed with such thoughts.... Because I can't remember what happened....what was my reaction, if it makes sense... Months later, I remembered this and I feel so guilty.... My gf is one of the most beautiful and amazing women you could ever meet.... Plus I'm gay and I keep saying that to my friend who sometimes jokes I'm bi (I'm afraid that he likes me.... He has given some evidence that he does but I don't like to say anything because I'm not sure)
Hey! I am here too. Don’t worry it’s a phase I promise you will get better.
Thank you.... Do you mind if I ask your opinion about something?
@deadwithocd Sure please go ahead
@deadwithocd You saying something ?
I think it is normal to second guess situations even if you are confident that you love your girlfriend. I think it’s best to examine these intrusive thoughts and try and understand where they are coming from. I think the fear you get from the thought proves how much you do care for your girlfriend !!
Thank you... I try to do that! I just hate myself so much when this happens because it usually ends up with false memories about thoughts! So fun!!!!