Please help... I need help.... I'm desperate.... I need someone to talk to.... About rocd (relationship ocd) please.... I can't handle it anymore. There's so much guilt in my heart.

what are you dealing with :(

Hi! Thank you for replying.... You are the first person to reply to my cry in these past 24hrs.... I'm so sorry for being annoying but I have been dealing with guilt over thoughts...

no problem !!

i’m down to listen !!

Thank you.... Basically, I have this friend who I am really close to and during one of our bonding moments, I had this thought of "do I have a crush on him? Maybe we are more suited for each other. Maybe I should break up with my gf" and I have these.... False memories, I think that I agreed with such thoughts.... Because I can't remember what happened....what was my reaction, if it makes sense... Months later, I remembered this and I feel so guilty.... My gf is one of the most beautiful and amazing women you could ever meet.... Plus I'm gay and I keep saying that to my friend who sometimes jokes I'm bi (I'm afraid that he likes me.... He has given some evidence that he does but I don't like to say anything because I'm not sure)

Hey! I am here too. Don’t worry it’s a phase I promise you will get better.

Thank you.... Do you mind if I ask your opinion about something?

@deadwithocd Sure please go ahead

@deadwithocd You saying something ?

I think it is normal to second guess situations even if you are confident that you love your girlfriend. I think it’s best to examine these intrusive thoughts and try and understand where they are coming from. I think the fear you get from the thought proves how much you do care for your girlfriend !!