Does anyone else worry that they don't love their partner in a relationship and sexual way but in a platonic way and the only reason you can see yourself being with them is cause they make you happy as a close friend and your emotionally attatched?

Is anyone here going throughbSOOCD while being in a relationship? If yes, do you feel like “something is missing” even tho everything is great? My OCD keeps on telling me “you’re settling” or “yeah you’re happy with what you have but its nothing compared to what you would be feeling if you were with a girl, but you’re with your bf for society!” Im soo tired!! When I look at him I find him so attractive and handsome but i dont know if im attracted to him or if he’s just attractive!! And while growing up I was never “pulled by guys” but I thought that everyone was this way! I also used to look at girls because I found them Beautiful but I thought that everyone used to look at them this way! I think what truly bothering me is “comphet” and the “lesbian masterdoc”. Like I feel like I can relate to some points! Yes I used to choosw my crushes growing up but it felt like everyone used to do the same thing! As for my current bf, we started out as friend and then it turned into something else but now im scared I just agreed to being his gf because “that’s what I had to do” and im scared that he’s my “beard”. I particularly got triggered yesterday because my friends were talking about their celebrities crush and I couldnt think about anyone without forcing it! Instead I could easily think about kristen stewart or someone with the same vibe. All of this + my feelings must mean something no??? I just want to feel “in love” my bf is perfect!

Hi everyone, I’m a 30-year-old woman, and I’ve been in a relationship with my boyfriend for 5 years. I’ve always felt emotionally close to him — he’s caring, supportive, and we planned a future together, including having a family. I don’t want to leave him. He means so much to me. But for a while now, I’ve been obsessing over the fact that I don’t feel much sexual attraction to him anymore. It’s not like I never felt anything — when we first met, there were butterflies, excitement, emotional connection… something real. He was never “just a friend” to me. But the physical side of the relationship feels like it’s slowly faded, and I’m panicking about what that means. I keep thinking things like: – “Maybe I chose the wrong person.” – “You can’t be in love without sexual desire.” – “If I was truly in love, I would still want him.” – “What if I’ve been lying to myself this whole time?” Sometimes my body reacts — I can feel physical closeness or even arousal — but my mind shuts down and says: “no, this isn’t right.” Other times, I feel tension, resistance, or even disgust during intimacy, and I can’t tell if that’s anxiety or if something is fundamentally wrong. What makes this even more confusing is that I truly believe that real love includes sexual attraction. For me, it’s all part of one feeling — not separate. So if the attraction is gone, does that mean the love is too? Is it possible that this is still OCD — that my mind is obsessing and disconnecting me from my real feelings? Has anyone experienced something similar? Any support would mean so much. I feel so stuck between my mind and my heart.

So I have intense relationship doubts about if I’m really in love or just attached to the security and companionship my partner brings. It started with knit-picking the way she jokes/talks about me and like sometimes i didn’t like how she looked in her glasses, then It was fantasizing about other woman thinking i must not be in love if I do that, then it was the fact that we couldn’t have deep talks without it being over an argument. If i truly loved her I wouldn’t be knit-picking her, I wouldn’t fantasize about other woman, I wouldn’t feel like we have something missing like having deep talks but then again I feel so much affection and care for her and what I assume is LOVE. So what is it?!? When I found out about ROCD i was quick to self diagnosed. I felt like that’s what I could have and for me my compulsions would be: searching up am I in love or attached quizzes, or searching up signs i’m truly in love. But although these compulsions provided relief for a bit, I always had a small voice/feeling/intuition telling me this isn’t right and I’m denying myself the truth which was that I’m not actually in love and just looking for a reason to justify staying in this relationship without feeling the guilt that I don’t really love her and just love her presence. We have broken up about 5 times but each time I run back to her within 24 hrs because I miss being with her and feel so sad to cause us both emotional pain. Is this ROCD or just attachment to the relationship and having her be mine.