i feel like i could never win with ocd. i let my thoughts pass and i’m okay but then i start feeling like im waaaaay too okay with the thoughts being there and it starts bugging me bc i wanna be sure i wouldn’t do that. im not sure if this makes sense but fuck im exhausted.

that’s EXACTLY how i feel. except i still haven’t gotten to the part of letting thoughts pass in my head. i feel like i HAVE to do my compulsions in order to feel fine after getting intrusive thoughts, otherwise i feel like i ‘believe’ them, it’s like impossible for me to stop. so yea it totally makes sense bc i completely relate, it’s exhausting really

Same, I feel like I have to do something to show that I don't want/like my thoughts. Especially since I've been lacking anxiety lately.