Somethings wrong and I feel a lot of guilt right now from something I’m not sure is OCD or real and it’s really worrying me. A friend of mine is with someone has a kid and is bi, I’m straight and a Christian. I keep having these thoughts of scenarios of “what if” we ended up together or if really am bi or what if her son becomes mine too and if I hurt people or if I did become bi that people would hate me and that because I had intrusive thoughts about my niece and my friend that they are linked that that if I because bi it would be because of my niece. I’m freaking out. I don’t want to be bi, I don’t want feelings for woman I just want to be normal. I’m not saying it’s wrong at all to be bi but for me I don’t want to be. It’s just not the me I want to be. I don’t know if it’s ocd or not but it feels so real as if I actually do have feelings for my friend and I really hope that’s not the case 💔

It’s ocd though right or am I in a bisexual in denial. I’m so scared. She’s my friend who’s not my best friend because we literally get along so well and my mind keeps coming up with these “scenes” or scenarios of us together and stuff like that. Nothing too crazy but it’s telling me that I’m having romantic feelings and it’s really starting to freak me out. I don’t know what to do. I would so ashamed if it was true. I don’t want it to be. I’m so scared right now

@Just Breathe ❤️ *now my best friend

@Just Breathe ❤️ It all has to be OCD for all of us here... I hope to god it’s HOCD for me...

@POCD/RealEventOCD Me too honestly. I just want someone to help. I feel horrible

I don’t even know for sure if it was intrusive thoughts or not. I just know lately I’ve been getting closer as a best friend with her and laugh a lot and we are both gamers so I play the game with her a lot and I keep thinking what if those scenarios in my mind aren’t intrusive and I am a bisexual in denial. She’s my friend who’s with someone with a kid, I would never ever want anything bad to happen and I don’t ever want to be bi. I don’t know if ocd is twisting it or if I should be worried? I don’t want to be going through this I’m already going through so much. Maybe it’s because she’s bi and I worried what if she’s attracted to me so then my mind wanders if I’m actually attracted back and these stupid scenarios keep racing in my mind and it really is starting to freak me out. I don’t know I’m confused and lost and upset. Just all of a sudden I thought about that I was actually thinking these weird things about her randomly while zoned out on the game just now and I immediately felt guilt made my face feel warm and my whole body felt weird. If I feel guilty does that make it true? Is it ocd or not? Am I bi in denial? What do I do? Do I do erp and try to just hang out with her like normal and let it pass? Why is this happening?

@Just Breathe ❤️ Honestly, I don’t know. Uncertainty is terrifying. I’m sorry to hear you’re going through this, OCD likes to twist things and make things feel like they have to be real because of all the “evidence.” It wants to make you believe that these thoughts are true. You should consider talking to a therapist:) I’m not a professional, just a fellow sufferer.

@linds💕 Oh ok

@Just Breathe ❤️ If you need to talk, I’m here!