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I feel like this too guys! I’m also a parent with pocd and false memory ocd. I’m at the point where I question every single move I make and it’s intention. I’ll be doing something and in the middle of doing it a thought will come in and I continue with the action and then it makes me feel like I’m acting on the urge 😖 it’s so distressing. It’s gotten to the point where I feel like it’s me and not my ocd as well. And I also feel like I’m developing a bit of ROCD toward my kid now because of it 😞
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im so sorry you’re going through this, it’s so scary & terrible. i don’t have a baby or anything but my dreams of being a mom are completely crushed because of this, i cant even imagine how much it’s hurting you to have these thoughts. you guys are so so so strong. Parents going through this breaks my heart because they don’t deserve to feel this way, no one does. this just breaks my heart i wish we could all just be okay again😞 you guys are so strong and amazing please don’t ever let your thoughts think otherwise!
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I am going through the same thing. Being a momma with pocd is the absolute worst thing ever. I question everything I feel like such a monster but I simply love my kids and I want to go back to just feeling like a normal mom
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If you ever want to talk I’m here, I can relate
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@Anon1294 Hey, I would like to connect if you’re still open to it. Do you have Instagram?
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@Freemeofocd I would be down to talk for support as well 😬 father here with pocd. Not using Instagram right now though ....taking a break
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@Ocdislame Hey! Yes I would love to connect. Do you want to text? Or what is your preferred method?
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@Freemeofocd Was thinking of maybe a discord or something? I’ve only used it for gaming. We can create a text group from there but didn’t want to drop my phone number on here publicly 😂
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I’m at a point now where I feel like it’s not ocd and just who I am
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yes me too. im stressed out.
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@Anonymous_234 Usually I have little ocd breaks but it’s been more than a month. Makes it really difficult
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@Ocdislame all of this worries me. i know i say this alot but it’s to the point where i never want to become the mom i always dreamed of being. im honestly so scared. my mind is on replay and the thoughts just won’t stop.
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@Ocdislame im so sorry you’re going through this😞
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@Anonymous_234 Yeah my wife wants to have another kid and I haven’t really gotten around to telling her I just can’t....I don’t know how that’s going to pan out ...
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Haha I feel it. I don’t have discord do I just download it in the App Store? I ve never used it before. I have an iPhone
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Yeah it’s basically like a chat room. Download and create an account. I can send a share link and basically anyone would be able to join
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maybe a therapist can respond or anyone who relates and experiences this also?? im trying to make sense . ever since ocd started, specifically harm ocd and pocd, sexual themes ocd in general, my brain makes everything sexual or gross. or just makes inappropriate connections with quite literally anything. or any person I see I wonder if they are a p, or if they are “like me”, because im fully convinced at times that im some weird or bad person, and then when i see actual criminals etc i cant help but compare myself to them it’s so weird?????? or sometimes I feel like i cant judge a p because im no different than them?? idk its so weird. rn writing this ik im not a p like what im just struggling with really bad ocd and trauma I hope :( It’s just my brain distorts everything and then it makes me feel worse, like “ur an actual p or pervert because see??? ur brain is sexualizing everything?” hopefully this makes sense
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Whenever anyone starts to feel like their thoughts are less triggering or they feel a moment of happiness/ relief OCD tells you that you want the thoughts back or you actually like having the thoughts and maybe thats just the person I really am? I feel like im going insane😢
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I sometimes see posts on here of people saying their OCD fears becoming true and it’s so so triggering for me. It makes me question if I ever had OCD and if I’m just faking it. I’ve tried to accept that my fear was real. Okay? Before I knew this was OCD, I really TRIED to accept it as a part of myself because I figured if I was even having those thoughts, it must be true. But in reality it just made me feel worse in the end. It wasn’t until several hours/few days after accepting the thoughts as true did I realize they were not and how uncomfortable it made me identifying with them that way, so eventually I went back into the rumination cycle. And I’ve done this multiple times. No matter how much I’ve accepted it as real, I never come to a conclusion in the end and I just get 10x more miserable. And I am still so scared of my fear coming true as those peoples did. But I know that’s what we all fear, otherwise we wouldn’t be here. And with a new fear I just developed, (all in the realm of the same theme) I’ve also tried to accept it as real when I felt SUPER convinced and even though it felt excruciatingly real, there was a part of me that couldn’t fully believe it, because I just know viscerally that it’s not. But the feeling of it being real is just too powerful and it overmastered any ounce of insight I had left. It wasn’t until my OCD spike calmed down when I was able to see through the viel. I hate this. I have no desire to do anything that my thoughts tell me. I know what I want to be, want to do, and it’s the opposite of those OCD thoughts. But these triggering posts won’t leave. (Not really the publishers fault, it’s my ritual that I engage in). They make me come all back to square one (if I wasn’t there already) and question if I’m using this as an excuse. I don’t want to do what my OCD tells me to do, but my brain just spits, “you’re just convincing yourself you don’t want this!” as it so often now does. I’m so tired. Please give me my old self back. Please give me 100% certainty that none of this is real and my fears are not at all based in reality. My brain cannot accept uncertainty and will not leave me alone. My brain is raged and powerless without knowing why, and spiels that anger back on me to get a reaction, and when it gets what it wants, the cycle continues. And goes way longer than I had bargained for :(
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