Thank you for this. I’ve noticed the more I try to check my feelings, the more far from my true self I feel, but somehow it’s difficult to resist compulsions, but I am trying. All I want is to be with a guy, without any doubts. That’s been my dream since I was a little girl, and now it feels like I don’t want that. I feel so far from me and it’s scary, I hate it.
Sending you all love, I know this is hard.