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cf05
18d ago
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
  • "Pure" OCD

Has anyone with SOOCD managed to get their old life back?? My intrusive thoughts are constant and nothing I do seems to relieve them. My straight, feminine self feels so far away because these thoughts are telling me that I am gay/not who I have always identified as and they are honestly breaking me. I just want to go back to seeking a relationship with a guy who will love and care for me without having these thoughts tell me I’m faking my attraction to men or trying to convince me that I’m attracted to women. Anyone who has recovered from this even the slightest bit I would love to hear how you did so and how you got your attraction to your preferred sex back because right now I feel numb.

EresPandulce♡ ᕱ⑅ᕱ
18d ago
I had times when it’s in remission, and things slowly go back to normal. But sometimes it strikes back full force. For me I noticed that the more you focused on testing your attraction, you lose attraction. Especially after going through ocd without a break, that all takes a toll on your feelings/drive. Depression also effects it. But After doing ERP/ and practicing self care for awhile, things slowly start returning to it’s normal. Unfortunately as of now I’m going through a major flare up. Everything that you said in this post is what I want. I want a relationship with a guy, I want a life long partner. Intrusive thoughts are a pain. I’m sorry you are going through this
linds💕
18d ago
Thank you for this. I’ve noticed the more I try to check my feelings, the more far from my true self I feel, but somehow it’s difficult to resist compulsions, but I am trying. All I want is to be with a guy, without any doubts. That’s been my dream since I was a little girl, and now it feels like I don’t want that. I feel so far from me and it’s scary, I hate it. Sending you all love, I know this is hard.
EresPandulce♡ ᕱ⑅ᕱ
18d ago
@linds💕 Absolutely. Resisting compulsions is super hard. Especially the mental ones, there’s moments where you’re not even aware that you are performing them. So sneaky. You’ll find that guy, you will get your dream. You will be able to beat this theme. Sending love to you too 💕
linds💕
18d ago
@ItsPandulce♡ ᕱ⑅ᕱ 🥰you as well! Follow your values always🥰
Hey I'm Sky
18d ago
Me it's the opposite
maggie1234
18d ago
I’ve had ups and downs. I had a really good stretch this summer I think because of some really exciting or hopeful things that were happening in my personal life. When those ended things got worse again with my OCD symptoms— although I’m better equipped to handle them now, I’m also exhausted and frustrated with having to go back to dealing with this.