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I don’t have much advice. But I do relate
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This is so random but I was just reading your bio and was like “OMG TWO CATS” I love kitties🥰🥰
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@linds💕 YESS!!! Love them so much hehe
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I feel this
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I get it. I listen to the Pure OCD podcast and they said when the thoughts pops up, acknowledge it, and let yourself feel whatever comes up without trying to figure it out. I understand what you mean. “There’s always something” really hit hard. Like when I start to feel better something else pops up. It feels so real. It even creeps into when I talk to my parents I feel like I’m just lying and I get these unwanted thoughts that I’m into girls and I’m supposed to be with a girl even when I don’t want to.
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I can relate to this as well. I feel as though I am hiding something because I am having these thoughts that feel so incredibly real, and on top of that, I feel like because I’ve spent so much time thinking about them and convincing myself that they must be true that there is no way I’ll come back from them now and live the reality I want. It’s so hard because I am closer with my family than anyone and can’t even talk to them about this because I feel so ashamed and feel as though admitting my thoughts out loud will make them come true.
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@cf05 I get that, I get scared that I’m just convincing myself I’m not gay even though I know I’m not?? Literally makes no sense, I know. I also feel like I’m just hiding something, or that I need to confess something. I’m close with my family as well, I told my mom about these thoughts because of how bad it got one night. But I don’t want to tell my dad or my brothers because so fear that they just won’t understand/it’ll make the thoughts true as well. I’m sorry to hear this is hard for you too, I would never wish this upon my worst enemy. OCD is so difficult, it’s so debilitating, and it’s so tricky. Sometimes it feels real, sometimes I’m ok, and then sometimes I just don’t know. Everything is triggering. You aren’t alone in this hard battle.
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@linds💕 Can you please Help me I’m really struggling
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@Bookworm91 Sure:)
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@linds💕 I posted some stuff just recently. And on this thread I’ve been having a bad day I just need a lot of help
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@Bookworm91 And thank you
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@Bookworm91 I’m right there with you! Todays been super difficult for me as well, I’m sorry it has for you too.
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I’ve had so many moments of clarity with my OCD that I love my boyfriend and I’m beyond willing to go through this to be better and be with him. in the back of mind I’ve in a way known I was at least somewhat sexually attracted to women (I’m a woman) since the start of the ocd it was always like “okay. Fine, but I don’t want to date a girl” I only just realized this after the ocd started, I never really argued with this. my ocd has always revolved around if I’m romantically interested in women and not men. I’ve done so many compulsions through this year and a half and 9 times out of 10 have come to the conclusion that I don’t want to be with a woman romantically. I always end up feeling like I know I love my boyfriend. But the doubts don’t stop about whether I want to spend my life with a woman instead, my heart literally breaks to think of not being with my bf and imagining him with someone else. I don’t want to be with a woman I know deep down somewhere underneath the anxiety that that’s not what I want. It doesn’t feel natural for me, unfulfilling. I want to tell my boyfriend about the possible sexual attraction to women (ik it’s still ocd related) but I’m scared that once I tell him, I’ll realize that I actually do want to be with women and not with him. Ugh I’ve spent hours today ruminating about this after being solid in my commitment with him for a little while, I’m stuck in this loop and idk how to get out right now
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Lately, I’ve been feeling extremely confused and guilty. My boyfriend has been really busy with exams, and we haven’t talked much this past week. I don’t really feel like I miss him, and that scares me. It makes me think maybe I don’t love him anymore, maybe I’ve changed, and maybe this relationship doesn’t feel right for me anymore. A few days ago, a friend invited me to go to a club with her and another girl. I know that if I went without my boyfriend, he would feel bad — not because he’s controlling, but because in our relationship, we’ve always had mutual boundaries and respect. I decided not to go, but ever since, I’ve been spiraling. My thoughts keep going: “What if I didn’t go just because of him?”, “What if I actually wanted to go, but I stopped myself because I don’t really love him?”, “What if I’m holding myself back and this relationship is limiting me?” All of this makes me think I’m bored, that I don’t like him anymore, or that I’m staying out of habit. It’s hard to tell what I really want or whether these thoughts are part of ROCD or some deeper truth. I keep wondering if I’m just attached to him because he’s my first boyfriend and we’ve been together for so long. Sometimes I even think I wouldn’t care if we broke up, and that I don’t feel anything for him anymore — and that absolutely destroys me, because he’s such a good person who truly loves me. He doesn’t deserve to be treated with so much doubt and coldness. I feel miserable. I don’t know what’s real and what’s just obsession. It hurts that I can’t feel any clarity or peace. I just want to know if this is ROCD or if I’m in denial and refusing to accept the truth
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just crying cause i feel like im never going to recover and just have to be lesbian, even tho i love my boyfriend so much. thoughts don’t even give me anxiety anymore idk what to do, im just so done, feel like it’s all real and that i want it(when i dont). any tips or anything, idk how to keep going
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