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I don’t have much advice. But I do relate
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This is so random but I was just reading your bio and was like “OMG TWO CATS” I love kitties🥰🥰
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@linds💕 YESS!!! Love them so much hehe
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I feel this
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I get it. I listen to the Pure OCD podcast and they said when the thoughts pops up, acknowledge it, and let yourself feel whatever comes up without trying to figure it out. I understand what you mean. “There’s always something” really hit hard. Like when I start to feel better something else pops up. It feels so real. It even creeps into when I talk to my parents I feel like I’m just lying and I get these unwanted thoughts that I’m into girls and I’m supposed to be with a girl even when I don’t want to.
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I can relate to this as well. I feel as though I am hiding something because I am having these thoughts that feel so incredibly real, and on top of that, I feel like because I’ve spent so much time thinking about them and convincing myself that they must be true that there is no way I’ll come back from them now and live the reality I want. It’s so hard because I am closer with my family than anyone and can’t even talk to them about this because I feel so ashamed and feel as though admitting my thoughts out loud will make them come true.
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@cf05 I get that, I get scared that I’m just convincing myself I’m not gay even though I know I’m not?? Literally makes no sense, I know. I also feel like I’m just hiding something, or that I need to confess something. I’m close with my family as well, I told my mom about these thoughts because of how bad it got one night. But I don’t want to tell my dad or my brothers because so fear that they just won’t understand/it’ll make the thoughts true as well. I’m sorry to hear this is hard for you too, I would never wish this upon my worst enemy. OCD is so difficult, it’s so debilitating, and it’s so tricky. Sometimes it feels real, sometimes I’m ok, and then sometimes I just don’t know. Everything is triggering. You aren’t alone in this hard battle.
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@linds💕 Can you please Help me I’m really struggling
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@Bookworm91 Sure:)
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@linds💕 I posted some stuff just recently. And on this thread I’ve been having a bad day I just need a lot of help
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@Bookworm91 And thank you
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@Bookworm91 I’m right there with you! Todays been super difficult for me as well, I’m sorry it has for you too.
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I feel so lost. My boyfriend tries so hard to help me, but nothing seems to work. Every time he reassures me, my mind finds another doubt. He asks me, “So you’ve been questioning if you love me for almost 2 years?” and instead of feeling comforted, my mind jumps to “Maybe I just can’t accept that I don’t love him.” I keep telling him every thought that comes to my mind, hoping for relief, but it never lasts. I feel anxious, disconnected, and stuck in this endless cycle. He tells me that if I truly didn’t love him, I wouldn’t care so much about these thoughts. But still, my brain won’t stop questioning everything. I don’t understand why I feel this way. Why does it feel like I’m forcing something? Why do I feel like I can’t just know how I feel? I want to feel okay. I want to be present with him without analyzing every moment. But no matter what I do, my mind keeps telling me “What if you don’t love him?” I feel like I’m stuck between wanting clarity and being terrified of what that clarity might mean. It feels so real, and I hate it. I don’t know what to do.
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just crying cause i feel like im never going to recover and just have to be lesbian, even tho i love my boyfriend so much. thoughts don’t even give me anxiety anymore idk what to do, im just so done, feel like it’s all real and that i want it(when i dont). any tips or anything, idk how to keep going
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I’m like 90% sure I’m just bi, more romantically inclined to men, mainly my bf who I wanna marry. But now my brain is like “if you lean into liking women or keep circling and circling for answers you’ll lose all attraction to men and your bf. You’re practically already a lesbian” I feel so tense and anxious I will admit I am talking to chat gpt out of desperation I’m scared of losing all attraction to him I don’t wanna be thinking about women. I don’t unless I’m really stressed cuz when I’m stressed my ocd can take advantage of that I can usually ground myself when I’m in the city with him but I’m back home for most of the summer and I can’t be physically close to him which usually reminds me that hey this is real this is what I really want in life. Him But then I panic and question I haven’t been here in a while tbh. I’m worried I don’t feel enough. I don’t like magic Mike all that much, I like softer guys. But now the fact I don’t like/get turned on by random men on tv but do women in lingerie really stresses me out and makes me worry I’m truly a lesbian but I’m not. Once I started getting to know my bf and my ex bf’s I really did truly genuinely like them and wanted to make out and everything. Idk can anyone relate to the not liking big buff men All my brain is repeating rn is “when he dies you’ll be able to date a woman, when you break up you’ll only wanna date women” and it’s stressing me out. It’s making me nauseous. I was doing well for about a couple days after I initially left but being at home has been so incredibly draining This might give you a vision of how stressful home is: I’ve been on nexplanon for 7 months ish? Only had very minimal spotting during a stressful school period. Today: fully bleeding, like a usual period. I haven’t had my period since having it put in. I wanna go back to my bf so badly rn. I’m so worried I’m faking or don’t feel enough. I’m learning what a healthy relationship looks like and I’m terrified I’m gonna up and leave him when we’re older cuz I’ll finally figure out that I’m a lesbian or smthn. Idk. Someone pls just help me out a tad
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