I feel this
I get it. I listen to the Pure OCD podcast and they said when the thoughts pops up, acknowledge it, and let yourself feel whatever comes up without trying to figure it out. I understand what you mean. “There’s always something” really hit hard. Like when I start to feel better something else pops up. It feels so real. It even creeps into when I talk to my parents I feel like I’m just lying and I get these unwanted thoughts that I’m into girls and I’m supposed to be with a girl even when I don’t want to.
I can relate to this as well. I feel as though I am hiding something because I am having these thoughts that feel so incredibly real, and on top of that, I feel like because I’ve spent so much time thinking about them and convincing myself that they must be true that there is no way I’ll come back from them now and live the reality I want. It’s so hard because I am closer with my family than anyone and can’t even talk to them about this because I feel so ashamed and feel as though admitting my thoughts out loud will make them come true.
@cf05 I get that, I get scared that I’m just convincing myself I’m not gay even though I know I’m not?? Literally makes no sense, I know. I also feel like I’m just hiding something, or that I need to confess something. I’m close with my family as well, I told my mom about these thoughts because of how bad it got one night. But I don’t want to tell my dad or my brothers because so fear that they just won’t understand/it’ll make the thoughts true as well. I’m sorry to hear this is hard for you too, I would never wish this upon my worst enemy. OCD is so difficult, it’s so debilitating, and it’s so tricky. Sometimes it feels real, sometimes I’m ok, and then sometimes I just don’t know. Everything is triggering. You aren’t alone in this hard battle.
@linds💕 Can you please Help me I’m really struggling
@Bookworm91 Sure:)
@linds💕 I posted some stuff just recently. And on this thread I’ve been having a bad day I just need a lot of help
@Bookworm91 And thank you
@Bookworm91 I’m right there with you! Todays been super difficult for me as well, I’m sorry it has for you too.
I don’t have much advice. But I do relate
This is so random but I was just reading your bio and was like “OMG TWO CATS” I love kitties🥰🥰
@linds💕 YESS!!! Love them so much hehe