Anonymous_234
- Date posted
- 3y
DillonBehlingDillonBehling
- Date posted
- 3y
I one hundred percent feel you. That is what is so hard is it latches onto what and who mean the most to us. You are not alone and I hope knowing this helps. Remember to not be to hard on your self. Have understanding for your mind even when so horrid. Let the thoughts come and go and listen to your heart. Believe in love. You are not defined by your thoughts and no matter what courses through your mind, it is ok, as your heart stays true and steady. I know and believe. Blessings love and light to you and all. I hope you get to design your graduation cap together and no matter the thoughts, know what your heart would say and believe in that. That you don’t mean your thoughts. That all you mean is love. ❤️
Anonymous_234Anonymous_234
- Date posted
- 3y
it makes me so sad and depressed. i wish i could just be who i was before and forget all this happened. but no ocd doesn’t let me rest anymore, i’ll get rid of one theme then boom here comes another terrible theme. im also starting to question if this is even ocd or it’s just me😞 i don’t even look forward to my graduation bc of this. i love my sister. she’s like a second mom to me so to see ocd try and make me hurt her is breaking my heart. i’ve gotten to the point where i have no anxiety or panic attacks to my thoughts anymore i think my body’s tired of fighting so constantly but im worried that since i dont have anxiety towards them that it makes it more likely to happen😞
DillonBehlingDillonBehling
- Date posted
- 3y
Mmmm my heart goes out to you. Truly, I feel you. I am right there with you. You are not alone. Don’t forget to love yourself, to nurture and care for yourself, to trust yourself. Trust your heart. Your thoughts don’t define you. And I feel you, it may seem like because you’re not resisting them, that they then have the space to turn into your worst nightmare. But by allowing them to come, you can allow them to go and through giving the space for them to coexist and not resist them, accepting what they are, then you can begin to move beyond them and let them go, as they come, instead of trying to fight them. This is not to say they are who you are and are true. But are just your mind spining. Believe in yourself believe that no matter what you think or your thoughts are you are a good person with good intentions and a big heart, that is all that matters and that is you. I am sure your sister loves you dearly and only wants the best for you. I believe she understands even if she may not seem like it as it is hard to explain, but she knows who you are, who your heart is, so don’t worry that your thoughts are who you are, they aren’t, although they do coexist, we must learn to coexist, and we can, although they do coexist, your heart is who you are. And I want you to know that you are worthy, there is forever and always hope and light. And you are surrounded in love forever and always. Sending you a big hug, well~being, healing, strength, light, love and some wonderful time with your sister! And I hope you can enjoy Gratuation. Blessings and love. ❤️
Anonymous_234Anonymous_234
- Date posted
- 3y
thank you so very much🥺, my heart is so full!, i’ve just been so so so full of doubt lately that my body just wants to give up because of how weak i feel, i feel like this is who i’m becoming and the thoughts just won’t stop coming my way😞
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