I feel like i’m drowning. I’m screaming on the inside and no one can hear me. No one I know understands the pain I go through every day. I feel like my OCD is making decisions for me that I don’t want. I feel it is ripping things away things that I love and care about. Its ripping away my identity from me. I honestly can’t tell whats real and whats not anymore. I feel so broken down. If ANYONE can offer any kind of support i’d be over the moon appreciative. I feel so unbelievably alone. I just want to feel heard from people who understand

I really appreciate you taking the time to reach out. It means a lot. I’m sorry to hear you’re also struggling. SOOCD is so unbelievably awful. I developed it after awhile of having ROCD which isnt uncommon. I hope you also find your peace someday and you can get to where you want to be

@moonstar I’m sorry to hear you both are also going through this. I also had (and sometimes it creeps in) ROCD for so long, which then developed into SOOCD. I hear you, I see you. You aren’t alone. I understand your struggle and how unbelievably difficult this is. Just like @Bimmi said, “let us keep hope and believe that all will fall back into place” 💕

@linds💕 Hi there. Your comments have repeatedly been helpful to me, and I was just wondering if you would be able to talk throughout the day today. I feel like everyday I lose myself more and more and have more feelings of being gay that are now turning into feelings of being trans. I honestly could never live my life not as a straight woman, but these thoughts are telling me that the reason I have been so insecure and uncomfortable in my own skin is that I am having an identity crisis and that I won’t be happy until I change something about myself. I’m so scared

@cf05 Yeah totally! I feel like I’ve been losing myself too, but since I’ve been on medicine I feel like I’ve gained some of myself back but I still don’t feel like me if that makes sense? I’m scared too, but we will get through this!

@linds💕 Yes that makes sense, and I am glad you are starting to feel better. May I ask how you go prescribed meds? I am scared to admit that I need them and don’t know if NOCD therapists even prescribe them.

@cf05 I used to be really scared of taking meds. I feared it would make my thoughts true, or I would go crazy, or I wouldn’t be myself etc. However, I’ve found them to be very useful, when you find the one for you of course. I talked to my therapist (she’s not from NOCD) about how I’m really struggling and she literally said “yeah you need to go back on medication” lol. So, I made a doctor appointment, and talked to my doctor about my OCD and asked her what medications would work best for me. She suggested Prozac and Lexapro. I chose Prozac 10mg, and just recently changed to 20mg. In the beginning it was hard because I had all the side effects. But you need to give it time, like 4-6 weeks minimum.

@linds💕 I haven’t ever had an NOCD therapist so I’m not sure if they can prescribe you medications but I’m sure they can certainly encourage you to take medication and as you’re taking it guide you along your OCD journey.