@cf05 I used to be really scared of taking meds. I feared it would make my thoughts true, or I would go crazy, or I wouldn’t be myself etc. However, I’ve found them to be very useful, when you find the one for you of course.
I talked to my therapist (she’s not from NOCD) about how I’m really struggling and she literally said “yeah you need to go back on medication” lol. So, I made a doctor appointment, and talked to my doctor about my OCD and asked her what medications would work best for me. She suggested Prozac and Lexapro. I chose Prozac 10mg, and just recently changed to 20mg.
In the beginning it was hard because I had all the side effects. But you need to give it time, like 4-6 weeks minimum.