This night wasn't good. I had anxiety attack. I finally can fall asleep at 3 am on my parents' bed. I had to wake up at 7. Ugh... OCD makes you doubt your feelings. It's the worst part.

Yeah…what I’ve noticed is that ocd quite literally is never satisfied, it will conjure up more questions even after you feel “okay.” I’m currently in the boat where I know the content of my thoughts aren’t true, but my ocd is making me doubt that. And it’s confusing, so confusing that it’s hard to explain lol. Anyways, you aren’t alone. I understand completely.