has anyone with like super bad ocd with the themes of pocd, false memory ocd &etc fully recovered?😞 i feel hopeless.

it’s only getting worse everyday, are your thoughts kinda slowing down? 😞

@Anonymous_234 Each day is so different for me, prior to being on medicine, I literally wanted to die. I cried every single day but now that I’ve been taking medicine, the thoughts are still there, they are just a little slower than they were before.

@oneday🤍 Hope that makes sense

@oneday🤍 yess it makes sense! im so scared to be on medications but if my thoughts worsen i think it’s my only choice 😞, are you in therapy as well?:(

@Anonymous_234 I was hesitant about medication at first too but I literally couldn’t stand the thoughts any longer, I was contemplating suicide so I knew it was time I had to do something about it. It’s helped me so far and I’ve been on them for about almost two months. Hopefully you find something that works for you! Yeah I’m also in therapy and seeing a psychologist.

i feel so hopeless and sad. i just don’t know what to do anymore it’s attacking everything 😞

@Anonymous_234 i can relate, it’s super scary & depressing! i was suicidal for months, couldn’t get out of bed, couldn’t shower, felt like i wasn’t me. couldn’t make any decisions without fearing the worst. lost all my interests. it’s been hell! it just takes a lot of time & work to get to a better place. my therapist would always tell me to advocate for myself. keep doing things for yourself, even when you don’t feel at all worthy. take care of yourself. feel your emotions & let them pass. do things you love. see people you love. your brain will eventually start to see that your worries aren’t as big as they seem. sending you love!

@Anna thank youu so very much🥺🥺, did you have have thoughts about family members as well? 😞

@Anonymous_234 omg yes absolutely! my entire breakdown was centered around my little cousin. i remember thinking he was an attractive kid when he was maybe 12 & i was around 17? flashforward a couple years and my brain was like…. what if you were in love with your little cousin you CREEP! 😳 i would spend every second of every day trying to figure out the memory. seeing if those feelings from 6/7 years ago were “love.” i was convinced i was a p*do. i started remember other strange things i did as a child/teen. i would try to figure out all those memories as well. it was torture & no one understood what i was going through! i was living my worst nightmare honestly. you are definitely not alone!

@Anna i feeel you so much on this!! my thoughts have been revolving around my family members so much lately and it’s constantly worrying me. i’ve gotten to the point where i’m too scared to take my little siblings to school & being alone. this never used to be a problem before ocd i just don’t understand 😞

thank you so much for responding back to me, i was having the worst panic attacks of my life but i hope so! i really wanna be me again, i wanna be able to trust myself around kids or anyone in general. i wanna just LIVEEE, im going on 3 months of no work, constantly crying, depressed & i won’t eat anymore bc of how bad this gets. i think i completely lost myself & im so worried for what’s next😞

i also think like about 2 weeks before my period starts it makes this 40x worse😣

it’s completely the worst! & omg especially when my period comes around it’s the most painful most stressful thing of my life. im trying my best to stay positive as of right now but it’s really hard when you have constant bad thoughts running through your mind 24/7. im so scared to nap or sleep throughout the day because i’m worried i may dream something that’s gonna trigger me so bad. but yes i know i may not be losing control but the way ocd puts it, im constantly living in fear and worry😞

how long was your recovery?🥺