What happened to me man, at one stage I was able to relate to so many hocd posts but nowadays when I read them I feel above them, like i cant relate to them at all and like my problem is different than hocd sufferers. My ocd also feels completely uncertain to me as if I dont have it. 

Sexual Orientation OCD

"Pure" OCD

I used to think I just had really bad self esteem and personality issues but its turning out that Im gay/trans and genuinely want to be one and hocd and depression just brought that out in the open. My brain is so scrambled 