Okay i have rocd. I just want to know If trying to take distance from someone is a form of it... I'll explain! I used to have a really happy relationship. I know how much fun I can have with my bf. But for the last 3 month, it's been a hell. We keep fighting, he can't decide if really want to stay or not; so he keep putting effort, and stop putting it the next day. I love with quality time; and lately it's been like a rollercoaster. I feel so overwhelmed at the idea of leaving him. But I would prefer it than stay in this situation! In the last week, we wrote really less, he keep putting others thing before me, I feel so disappointed, so unspecial and unimportant. I am really emotional. So a break up usually destroy me for some times. But this situation is worse! Every time I feel alone, I go to the "break up pain", but then he gives me a little hope and everything restart... I really want to receive his messages, but at the same time I'm super scared that he will disappoint me again... lately I also lie to him, telling goodnight before I actually go to bed, to have some time just for myself, where I know he will not write me! I loved him, and I know how happy I can be, but I hate this situation... it's like I know that I can't trust him, because I will get broken again! (Like he did a lot of times, because he doesn't know If he wants me or not) :(

Username: DayAngel

Date posted: 325d ago

I struggle with ROCD and i’m going through the exact same thing right now, I know what it feels like and it’s awful, seriously no one deserves it. I don’t know what to tell you since I’m also lost but I’m sure that there is a light to the end of the tunnel. Stay strong!!

Username: Redyroo

Date posted: 324d ago

I’ve definitely seen massive improvements with my rocd and I feel like a lot of it was down to my self esteem. That was the main problem and once I focused on fixing that instead of the relationship, everything else went inti place. My bf is now treating me like a princess and buying me things even when I don’t ask for it, giving me compliments, asking to see me. It all starts with yourself. You really have to stop avoiding how you feel through your relationship and bring the attention back on yourself. Looking back at your message, most of what you wrote is about him and the relationship. If you just take a small step back, sit with your feelings and try and self soothe and make yourself happy first without the relationship, it will do you a massive favour. Pretend you are single rn. What makes you happy? What hobbies do you have? What goals do you want for yourself? What do you value?