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cassidy.grace
15d ago
  • Relationship OCD
  • Perfectionism OCD

Hi everyone. I’ve been struggling with undiagnosed anxiety for years now, and started an incredibly healthy relationship about 7 months ago. I purchased a ton of books and listened to a ton of podcasts to teach me how to be the best partner I can be for my girlfriend and not let my trauma affect our relationship, but I’ve really been struggling with awful thoughts about self-sabotaging (imagining myself in a situation where I cheat, where I fall out of love, where I irreparably hurt her) even though I know I love her. I cannot get the thoughts out of the head, and they make me nauseous and dizzy with worry that I’m going to ruin something good, or that our relationship isn’t healthy despite all my efforts to be an absolute perfect girlfriend (which is exhausting in and of itself). Hit a breaking point today where I started frantically googling things (Google is my best friend whenever I’m stressed) and found this community. I don’t know if I have OCD (the more I learn the more I’m convinced I do) but I’m hoping this app can at least give me some resources to help manage my emotions. Thank you.

Sefora
15d ago
I have contamination OCD and when I found out it was difficult for me to believe my fears weren't real and that it was actually the OCD. Took me a while to truly realize. And from what I've read not that I deal with the same fears as you but yours sounds like it's forsure OCD. I hope you get the relief needed to live a happy life.
Sefora
15d ago
Remember it's NOT you it's the OCD!