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- 3y
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- 3y
I get that āstuckāfeeling at times,you have to try push through it and itās very hard x
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- 18w
So hard to not engage the thoughts because even though it's from the "past" (i don't even know if im remembering things correctly and it kills me) and i can't change it, I just NEED to prove it to myself that it didn't happen this way. If you'd asked me questions maybe a few months ago, I would have been able to lucidly explain things. Now I just feel like I'm in a constant swarm of thoughts, not knowing if anything is real. If my brain is to be trusted. Wish I could just get hypnosis to forget
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- 15w
Hi everyone, Iām new here, and I wanted to share my experience. Iāve been struggling for over a year now on obsessing over a mistake. And the rumination of the mistake I made has been overwhelming and exhausting in those two years. I feel like such a horrible person. At the time, I didnāt realize what I was doing would affect me so much. When I realized it was wrong, I just said Iāll never do it again, and I moved on. But then months later, I was reminded of what I did, and I felt like I did the worst thing in the world, and that my life will never be normal again. And ever since then, itās been a constant thought. And itās exhausting. I have been able to open up to my family and a close friend about it and their reactions were so nonchalant compared to what my brain has been telling me. They say it wasnāt even that bad, and that I shouldnāt be beating myself up. I tell them how badly I feel and they just act like it was nothing. I thought that would help, but my brain continues to tell me how horrible of a person I am and I obsess over this one mistake I made two years ago. Iāve learned from it, Iāve moved on, Iāve opened up about it, Iāve gotten reassurance, but yet it still eats at me. Itās constant some days. Where all I wanna do is lay down in a corner and never leave. I feel like my life will never be normal again and Iāll never experience happiness again. Whenever I smile or feel any type of joy my brain tells me to stop and reminds me that Iām a bad person and I donāt deserve to be happy. Even though everyone tells me what I did wasnāt even that bad. And that it doesnāt make me who I am. But guess itās not enough and Iām really running out of options.
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- 14w
Does anyone deal with rumination with their childhood past mistakes. Deep down I know I didnāt know any better but then I start having thoughts and it gets worse after that. I also recently have dealt with death in the family, started my period, started college and just moved to my own apartment this last month. :-/ I genuinely just wish I could let go of my past I feel like I could be a better person for myself mentally if I could just let it go.
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