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- 3y
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- 3y
I was at a basketball game and someone asked me if I was gay. That’s when I started to think, what if I am? I thought that it was ridiculous and the thought would just go away like other thoughts because I’ve always been attracted to girls. I kept thinking if I was in a relationship how everything would be ruined if I was. I became distanced from all of my friends because I was afraid to get a random feeling of attraction that I’ve never had before.
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- 3y
I remember being at my aunts house. And she was with her GF. And I remember looking at her and asking her if she was and she answered yes. And that’s it she didn’t go into detail or anything I was just a kid. My mom came and picked me up. I asked my mom if I was going to be like her because she’s my aunt. And my mom said no that’s not how that works. And I remember when I figured it out and when she confirmed it that i was scared I didn’t feel like oh that’s the one like me. I felt dread I didn’t want to be like her. And it’s not like my mom was like oh that’s evil blah blah fire and brimstone know she just said no that’s not how that works. And I didn’t think my aunt was bad I just didn’t wanna be like her at all
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- 3y
I can’t remember clearly but I could’ve sworn it all began when I had this dream about kissing another girl (mind you I’ve met this girl once in my life, MAYBE twice but idk for sure). It’s so weird though like this is life now.
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- 3y
I saw a tiktok of someone saying I’m not gay or bi but I wouldn’t mind kissing a girl and the thoughts just came since I said oh yeah same so yeah that’s how my so-ocd began
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- 25w
For me it was a weird intrusive thought and after that I slowly started developing anxiety and I felt a weird thing like I was losing my attraction to girls. Then I woke up one day in complete panic cuz it felt like I had lost feelings for girls suddenly and I started searching online how to know if you’re gay if sexuality changes suddenly and I took some gay tests or sexuality tests online. Chat gpt was a big thing back then too. That was before therapy and before I knew what ocd is.Can anyone relate?
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I wanted to voice that homosexuals can get HOCD too. I remember when i was younger and knew i was gay i still got HOCD one time when watching The Office. I thought Pam was so pretty and then started doubting my whole identity because what if i am straight? Oh god, what a terror if i was heterosexual. But anyway, thought that maybe this would help heteros with HOCD by knowing that this is a universal symptom across OCD sufferers of all sexual orientations. A big problem is calling this subtype “Homosexual OCD,” because its not. It has nothing to do with being homo or hetero or bi or anything. Its just OCD being a bully. I think labelling subtypes is an issue altogether, as it can unconsciously make people feel like its not just OCD. But it is. Does this make any sense? What are yall’s thoughts on this? Or is this just my OCD talking? (Im not seeking reassurance just genuinely find this interesting) TLDR; each time we “qualify” OCD with a subtype, we reinforce that the subtype is part of the issue. In reality, OCD is just a broken loop in our brains, and thoughts are just thoughts. And Pam Beesly is a hottie.
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- 24w
Anyone who has had sexual orientation OCD since the “dating age” (middle school/high school)— how did you ever determine your sexuality? I don’t want reassurance because I understand our experiences may be different. I’m just curious— did you try boys and girls? Did you just find your person and know? I started having SOOCD at age 16 and I’m now 28. OCD has ruined my ability to date more than anything else. I feel like it stole my chance at love. I’ve had three long-term situationships with men. I adored them but they were also toxic because I think I subconsciously didn’t believe I deserved better. I felt that if I knew the relationship wouldn’t work because of fundamental differences, at least it was okay that I couldn’t fully be present in the relationship. Not sure if this makes sense, but I’m just grieving that part of my life I missed out on.
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