My psychologist said its just ocd and that it has taken away my sexual/gender identity but even him saying that I felt no relief no reassurance or closure or anything. Not that I dont believe his judgement but I dont think it is a ocd matter and I feel like I should be seeing a lgbt specialist or something, I dont think i even want myself to be straight or that I am gay/trans and want to work this sexuality issue out instead of ocd. I dont think he gets the full scope my thoughts/feelings/proof. I mean I legit feel like Im going through a sexual/gender crisis. What do I do, im so confused and worried

I think you should tell him and explain that he doesn’t have all the information and hasn’t heard your full story.

@baeonce It just triggers me that i am or might be going through a sexual/gender crisis it makes me suicidal and depressed and when I tell him all the things, It will be ond clear to me and i wont be able run away from it anymore or hide behind ocd.

It just feels like Im feminine and never really understood what being a man felt like until hocd and these trans thoughts/feelings hit me. And now im running from my true self

@Imaan7 I am in the same position but as a woman struggling with feeling masculine. I have always loved being a woman, but I have had major self confidence issues most of my life. While I always thought this was body dysmorphia, I am starting the feel like it was actual gender dysphoria all along. I do not want to be transgender at all, the thought of it makes me sick.

@cf05 Thats where we differ, I cant bring myself to say I dont want to be trans or gay, my mind just cant say those things i dont know why, Im afraid its because I know deep down I am those things. Those thoughts dont make me sick or disgusted either. If you look at me IRL i look really manly, like I have a big beard, hairy af, broad shoulders, although skinny but its my insides that feel like a girl or wanting to turn into one or dress up like one and these freaking thoughts cause me arousals. I really think/know this is just a sexual/gender crisis i mean even my psycologist reassured me I have ocd but I didnt feel a thing and if I tell him every thought I wont be able to run away anymore.

@Imaan7 Hey man we’ve discussed this before but if the thoughts are arousing you, you probably have comorbid OCD and transvestic fetishistic disorder. That’s what it is for me. I would read about these things to gain more insight. But what you’re describing is not gender dysphoria.

@Owen Roberts I honsetly avoid reading anything, Im very gullible in general and right now my brain wont be able to handle it. Would you mind summarizing it? Whats gender dysmorphia? I dont even know these terms

@Owen Roberts Dysphoria* sorry

@Imaan7 Gender dysphoria means you have a strong identification as the other gender and desire to become a member of that gender as soon as possible with social transition, hormones, surgery, etc. Transvestic fetishism means that the idea of being a woman, having female body parts, wearing womens clothes, etc. sexually arouses you. As you know TOCD, involves intrusive thoughts about wanting to become or becoming a member of the other gender. In abnormal psychology, fetishes and the obsessions of OCD are considered to occupy different areas of the same abnormal spectrum. Therefore, they are often comorbid. I have this and it sounds like you do as well. If you haven’t mentioned it to your therapist, you should mention that the thoughts arouse you.

@Owen Roberts What does this mean for us? I think I feel loads of anxiety so it might be anxiety arousal? Not sure, I also dont feel like I want to have boobs or a vagina again not sure, i havent really given much thought to any of this to be honest, just that these thoughts/images/feelings come in my head, and several areas of my body and make me feel like Im a girl or want to be one. And I cane across some porn content the other day it was images of women with captions telling men to feminize themselves and do gay stuff and TMI* that gave me a hard on which sent me into a bad attack. Ive never questioned or thought about my sexuality or gender ever before ocd began so that has to account for something right?

@Imaan7 Yea you’re in the same boat as me. Everything you said checks out.

@Owen Roberts Why dosent that reassure or make me feel better man? I just feel like this is how I was always supposed to be and i know this is me deep down.

@Imaan7 It doesn’t reassure you because you have OCD and OCD will never let you have certainty. It’s the same with me.

@Owen Roberts Thanks man, although i still feel how I was yesterday but appreciate your help