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- 3y
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- 3y
whatever you do, DO NOT TALK to anyone at your school about this. 1st of all, if you did look something up, whatever you looked up was probably not illegal AND WAS A COMPULSION. 2nd they probably aren't going to see it anyway unless the issue is actively brought to their attention. just try to do erp and move forward.
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- 3y
i wont im too scared to even speak about my ocd 😞
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- 3y
I did this exact thing in high school and went to my psychology teacher about it, trying to explain my diagnosed ocd. she told me she might have to tell everyone I was a pedophile. I assure you. I wasn't.
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- 3y
@excalibre-hotmessexpress some people are just in it for the money and it shows. im so sorry this happened to you!! when i went to a mental health urgent care for my first time and i tried explaining pocd to the therapist and she told me “so you’re into little girls??” i panicked and cried, i tried my best to explain to her but she wouldn’t understand she judged me the whole time. after that i didn’t reach out for anymore help. she had almost ruined my whole life. i even explained that i was worried something might’ve happened in the past but it was false memory ocd trying to get me to confess to something i never did. i walked out of there panicking and questioning my whole life. she triggered me so bad.
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- 3y
@Anonymous_234 I feel so sorry that you went through this, I had something similar happen to me but in a different way, I've never fully recovered from it. I was doing fine with pocd until that day, that episode reactivated it and I felt like my whole world was crumbling down. My worst fear happened. When someone associates the p-word with you it really fucks you up, it poisons you and makes you question your identity.
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- 3y
Don’t tell anyone about your OCD theme and don’t do that stuff again on your school account. It’s not worth any of the drama that might or might not follow, as excalibre-hotmessexpress has shared.
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i didnt mean too, i was doing my school work over my phone and i realized i had logged into my school google account when i was going to search the side effects of the pills urgent care prescribed me but i don’t think i googled anything. i just scared myself badly. also the only people who know about my theme is my mom & sister ☹️
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but im still really scared i might’ve been logged in at some point.
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- 24w
I feel like a really terrible person right now, I keep replaying this, and no matter what I can’t remember what happened, it’s like my brain is purposely not letting me think about it. Without wasting any more time, I’ll get into it. Basically, I was at Walmart, and looking at cards with My Dad, I saw anime ones, took pictures of them for my sister, even ones that were anime kids, because I did my best to ignore it, so I looked at a Hunter x Hunter card, I stared at the black haired kid, being all like “ I’m glad I’m not having any thoughts about this, I’m glad I’m having normal thoughts and not thinking anything” I felt happy, then as soon as I looked at killua (white haired kid), everything collapsed. I don’t know what happened, my brain won’t let me remember. But I’ll give bits and pieces. I think that I had false attraction, and something in my head, said “oh, I wouldn’t mind being attracted.” “He is attractive, and I’m attracted to him.” “I remember a girl thinking he is attractive and he is” “ It’s not wrong to be attracted” “ I don’t care about his age” .. something along the lines of that, and now I’m panicking super hard, because I’m worried if I said those things, I feel like I ruined my life that I’m a pe//do and deserve nothing, idk what to do, I feel terrible… I remember when I was having the intrusive thoughts, I was panicking and was worrying, but it kept playing out, and I kept hearing things talk, it was drawn out too long, that now I feel convinced that I was saying those things, I tested it too, and I can confirm that I didn’t say that, but why am I still not convinced? I know I wouldn’t say those things, I was hoping the complete opposite would happen. My brain kept making me feel like it wasn’t wrong and it was okay. Maybe that’s why I’m so convinced I did that. I’m just spiraling super bad right now, I don’t know what to do or what to think, I don’t know if I said that or not… even if I did test it, I genuinely just feel like I said it, and I wanted it, because I still feel uncertain, I still feel like I said it, part of me just wants to be like oh I did and so I can move on, not because I agree with it, I just don’t know what else to do… I’m really scared.
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- 15w
Just gonna vent, this never happened to me before during my 20 years alive. Whether it is POCD or not, I have truly lost my sense of self and my innocence. Why of all things did this have to happen. Ive been experiencing more strong groinal responses and mixed feelings of arousal regarding specific thoughts. Its so odd, cause last month none of this happened, it was mainly just anxiety and mental breakdowns. Never did I think I would experience physical sensations as well. Acting on compulsions as well left me feeling absolute confusion, Ive stopped doing that but now I get the urge here and there, and Ive learned to sit with the discomfort. All this leaves me with more questions on whether I will truly get through this or not, or if people will understand my situation. On certain days I feel fine, on other days its sheer terror. I blame myself mainly for this all, It is scary as these images, causing both arousal and terror, only result in me feeling like a shell of my former self
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- 12w
I am 15 years old and my POCD feels like its not POCD, i feel like i like my intrusive thoughts, but i have more intrusive thoughts about having intrusive thoughts, and i feel like i cant enjoy the things i normally enjoy anymore, like calling with my girlfriend and joking with her because this is still in the back of my mind, its making me question morals and if i ever even viewed P as completely wrong and i hate this so much, i love my nieces and nephews and when they're over i know id never do anything with my intrusive thoughts but when they arent present i feel like i like my thoughts. Before this i was dealing with HOCD and ROCD and i wish i could go back to that
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