the guilt and shame from my thoughts just won’t go away. i wanna go shopping? “no you’re a sick person!” i graduated? “you don’t deserve to be happy.” i wanna eat? “no you don’t deserve it” im so so so tired dude.

it’s just so mentally draining i feel like i don’t even know who i am anymore and it breaks my heart. i used to be a nail tech before all this happened to me & i always dreamed of making it big in this world & now? i feel done. i feel like there’s nothing more out there for me other then failure. everytime i try to be great it knocks me right back down on my ass. it’s so heart breaking..

im so sorry i just vented a little too much😭

i try to remind myself of this as well but my mind doesn’t seem to comprehend it😞

@Anonymous_234 I know ocd completely changes you and your life it is so hard to get yourself into routine and doing the simple things you enjoyed before but I promise you step by step getting yourself into a routine wether slowly or not will help manage the thoughts a lot I’m not saying distract yourself because that is strongly advised not to be done with thoughts but in general give yourself hobbies ect that you enjoy or always wanted to try because it will help you to get yourself back on your feet, there is still hope!! Don’t give up on yourself girl you are strong and more than capable of fulfilling your dreams it just takes a lot of healing and time you will get there

@Anonymous_234 Not at all I’m happy to help someone because that’s what I wish I had sometimes

@Anonymousoverthinkerlol thank you so much😞 i appreciate you! but yes it’s been such a hard fight. there’s always a good and bad days. the bad days always seem to really really knock me down but i really wanna get in the routine of thinking more positive even on bad days because “it’s a bad day not a bad life” i pray one day we all heal from our struggles & silent battles we fight with our minds every single day. im always here if you need someone to talk too!🥺

@Anonymous_234 Trust me I get you and I really hope things get better for you I know how hard it can be sometimes it can feel like your in this endless loop of thoughts and feelings and it is very true we may be suffering for now but it’s temporary pain we will heal with time. And thanks a lot same to you I appreciate it a lot I also wanted u to know you’ve helped me a lot tonight and just by speaking to someone I’ve managed to calm my thoughts down a lot

@Anonymousoverthinkerlol awee! my heart feels so full🥺 thank you soo much! & sometimes we all just need someone to talk to because bottling up emotions only makes things 20x worse. i don’t think im gonna be able to sleep tonight because my thoughts have just been so intense & all the the dispensaries are closed around me for the cbd oils ☹️ but we got this! we can be okay again!🥺