pocd makes me want to just hurt myself sometimes. I feel like a monster for having urges and i’m also like I wouldn’t have the guts to do anything. But, this is so angering every time I see a child I wish they were out of my existence. I wish I would never see one again because they’re very triggering to me. It’s really hard wishing you were just a normal person and rejecting yourself because of these obsessive intrusive thoughts that are making my life a living hell. false memory is torture of non stop doubt and worry. this is really sensitive but it needs to be said.