i’m so scared i like my thoughts, my mind tells me i do and then my heart starts beating fast and i’ll feel sick sometimes. it also makes me lose my breath or my stomach sinks when i think abt me possibly liking my thoughts. It almost feels like an addiction abt thinking my thoughts and idk why i’m so worried

i know thank you :)) i just feel like i’m crazy for faking being anxious abt it/ suppressing how i rly feel

@eimjin yes! i do this too, i force an emotion or something bc im terrifed that me not reacting to it means ima do it ☹️

@eimjin Hey, no need to fake it! I totally understand. Here's the deal, we fake it because we feel remorseful of having the thoughts and not ALWAYS having an anxiety response. Not having an anxiety response just means that our brains are sick of OCD's crap and not buying into it! This is a good thing. We don't like the thoughts (obviously..you even said you're SCARED that you like the thoughts which leads me to believe that you don't want those thoughts to become real,), but we also are champions and can discern what we are and are not in agreement with. When we're not in agreement with a thiught, we are ALLOWED to let it pass us, unaffected. That is actually the GOAL! Great job, dude! Don't let OCD trick you. It's trying to pull it's last stop on you. You can do this!

@Anonymous_234 I also do this too, but read my comment below for an elaboration! Let's not get stuck, guys!

@mountainmama thank you!!! and i’m sorry for keep going on about this but it’s like when i’m not anxious it feels like i like it when the thought pops up which then leads me to feeling anxious, im just so confused i hate it

@mountainmama and deep down i feel like i like it and that scares me

@eimjin I know that feeling too well ❤ DO NOT apologize or even start to judge yourself! Sometimes I feel like I need to stop myself from spiraling and "restart" my brain! Haha

@mountainmama yes i feel the same way!! i wish i could just start everything over and maybe i wouldn’t be like this :(( i’m scared it will start changing me as a person and i’ll really turn into what i don’t want to bc it keeps trying to convince me that i’m an evil person (and i’m starting to feel like i really am)

aww i’m sorry you’re going through the same thing :(( it’s so hard