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this theme is scary and hard. my best advice is to take some deep breaths. what’s helped me is to picture it as a tv in the background while you’re sitting in a bar (acknowledging it’s there, but not having to give it all your attention). you’re definitely not alone, and if you can put it on the back burner just for a little bit, even for 10 mins you can slowly focus your mind to the present moment. it’ll be there when you’re ready to deal with it, but you don’t have to engage. of course it’s easier said than done, but it’s a start. i’m not a therapist, but that visualization has kind of helped me.
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I feel this way about harm ocd sometimes and it’s important to remember that adrenaline from fear can sometimes feel good. Like watching a scary movie right? It’s called misattribution of arousal. It doesn’t mean you actually like it, it’s just a psychological phenomenon. Try just accepting the thoughts I know it sounds crazy at first because it might feel like that means you like them but it doesn’t you’re just acknowledging them and then going about your day.
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i relate to you! one day i just kind of had the thought, “what if you’re struggling in your relationship because you’re actually into children or something?” it was like a switch went off in my brain. i had no thoughts even remotely like that before, then suddenly my days were consumed with that thought. images, memories, things i considered “proof” from my childhood. i started looking at children differently, being overly cautious of them, feeling uncomfortable with them. i was convinced i lost my mind (because it truly felt that way!) you definitely aren’t alone! millions of people struggle with these thoughts & compulsions. i still have all these thoughts, but i try to treat them as any other thought. they aren’t good or bad really, they are just something the brain has put together. background noise really.
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I'm extremely scared
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Being exposed to taboo p*rn as young as first grade ruined my life and now ocd is making me pay for it. I have so much guilt for being a child/teen and looking at taboo stuff, and it was all fictional or anime or whatever but it was still so so gross. and I didn't realize It because I had been used to it at so young 🫠 I think what haunts me most is when I was a kid/young teen (like 12-14ish) and didn't have access to p*rn I'd imagine stuff similar to what I'd seen in the art. I can't even believe I'd imagine scenarios involving kid characters or whatever because it had been so normalized to me and I assumed it was normal since it was fiction. I'm 23 now so it's been a decade since I've done anything like that and I've never had the urge to since but still. I've NEVER been attracted to kids or had any urges or anything ever, even when I was addicted. The thought makes me want to vomit, I'd rather die than associate anything sexual with kids/minors and I think people who groom or assault kids are vile. But I still feel like the fact that I imagined stuff similar to the things I read sometimes when I was young is proof I'm a p*do. I don't think people would believe me if I said I'm not. I just feel like I don't deserve to live or that if I do, I'm living a lie. I know 'I was a kid too' but even when I was 13/14 I read/imagined stuff with characters younger than me because I thought it was normal. I'm so disgusted. I've had this theme for so long I'm starting to wonder if ocd is right. I feel too ashamed to tell my therapist.
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(20f) I have been dealing with severe OCD symptoms for as long as I can remember. I recently got diagnosed about a year ago, and even though I know that these thoughts are probably my ocd, I still cant shake them. Growing up I was always very sexually curious. I was sheltered from a lot of things, as I went to a private school and things like sexuality and sex were never talked about. I remember doing some weird sexual things growing up (never affecting another person), looking up taboo sexual things, etc. I always seemed to become aroused no matter what the situation was, even if I just saw someone getting changed. I have no recollection of being SA'd, so i'm wondering where this all came from? Was I just curious and wanted to experiment and try different things? Or am I really a pervert, pedophile, etc. I have all these thoughts racing through my head and it's killing me. Everything I did as a kid I look back on and am disgusted, as those don't align with my views at all today. I never thought growing up thinking these things were wrong, or actually realize what they were until I got older. I'd like to think it was just my curiosity, but i'm not sure. What if i'm in denial and actually do like these things? I just need to know if theres something wrong w me, I cant keep going on like this. Could really use some advice.
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Hi I just have a few questions! (Im 14 btw) Okay so basically I’m really worried I’ll become a pedo/I already am and I don’t know it yet. I’m also really scared if I SA someone, even tho I don’t want to and I’d never do something like that but I feel like this part of me is saying that I will and it’s really scaring me. I feel so alone and I’m so scared I’m a bad person on the inside and this isn’t ocd and I’m gonna unleash hell on this earth I’m so scared. I’ll get a thought like if I’m walking past someone random it will be like “What if you sa them?” And it scares me so bad I feel horrible for thinking that. Is this apart of it? I feel like I’m always fixated on the topic of sa to check if I would do something like that, I don’t know anymore I just feel like a bad person (btw I have not done anything like that to anyone!)
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